secret stuff

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Rare photo.

Loving my hair u guys have no idea!

You said you’ll wait forever but I blinked and the world was gone…
—  “And the world was gone” by Snow Ghosts

The first gospel church of Kool-Aid

No one wants to admit that they are or were in an emotionally abusive or any type of abusive relationship. There’s so much denial in admitting it, but eventually you come to realize that fairy tale you had in your head was created for you to stay. You were being needy or dramatic for calling them out on their shit. Your accomplishments were never anything special compared to theirs. There were always other people involved in your relationship, whom you knew didn’t belong there, but their presence was justified in some bullshit way. You were the crazy jealous ex, while they were the victim and you’re at fault for what they chose to do. Nothing you ever did was valid and you should be so lucky that they ‘changed’ for you. You’re so used to blaming yourself and never feeling good enough for anything, that at this point no one’s shit surprises you anymore. You made so many excuses for them and blamed yourself for everything when they decided to leave. That’s what emotional abuse does to you.
—  Confessions of a Pure Soul
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I need to lose weight but how can I when things like these exist ?