it feels too good
until the end
when the emotions
kill me instead.
—  drugs.

To Covet You

Is sinfully wrong
remembering last Fall
our eyes played a song

To covet you
means to admire your beauty
you don’t know of my desire
but it is this summer’s duty

To covet you
is to break commandment nine
but with the addition of six
positioned just right, I am fine

To covet you
is to bear witness to my weakness,
wicked ideas overpower what is right
as I imagine riding you like the Preakness.

To covet you
means to exit one sand
with the promise of new
unexplored, fruitful land

To covet you
is to memorize your face
a soft shape, smooth lips, playful eyes
then I remember my place

To covet you
hurts my searing heart
drought filled days
moonless nights ripped apart

To covet you
is to know your body is a masterpiece
designed to drive me wild each night
dreaming about your succulent crease

To covet you
with my deceiving eyes
hiding behind a fake disguise
my secret cloaked in lies

To covet you
means to break my vow
you stare my way
will you notice me now?

© Gemma Shockley

my future partner is probably texting their bae right now about how they’re gonna be together forever. sike, see you in ten years bitch

november 14

"why do you always wear black"
cause i’m ready for ur funeral bitch

we know// fifth harmony

I edit the look of my blog whenever you edit my feelings.
cause its my problem if i wanna pack up and run away
its my business if i feel the need to smoke and drink and sway
its my problem, its my problem if i feel the need to hide
and its my problem if i have no friends and feel i want to die
—  Marina And The Diamonds
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.