romantically

Title of Amy’s sex tape

Kind, sober, and fully dressed (1x06 Halloween)

I’m sorry about tonight (1x06 Halloween)

It’s not your fault, I was terrible (1x06 Halloween)

I’m not even going to touch that - the Amy Santiago Story (1x19 Tactical Village)

I’m horrible at this. When can we stop? (1x22 Charges and Specs)

I’m with someone, nothing’s gonna happen ( 2x01 Undercover)

This better not bite me in the ass (2x05 The Mole)

Uh-oh, hope it doesn’t get too sexual (2x15 Windbreaker City)

But seriously, what is taking so long? (2x15 Windbreaker City)

Blast of cold air coming out of that box (2x16 The Wednesday Incident)


BONUS: 

Title of JAKE’s sex tape

Well done (1x22 Charges and Specs)


Title of Jake/Amy’s sex tape

Why doesn’t your mouth work (2x21 Det. Dave Majors)

I could build a future between your thighs
then look into your eyes trying to find
my own private history channel
with a life long documentary
on whether or not this was meant to be
and I don’t want to turn any of this into poetry
but
you’re so beautiful
flowers turn their heads to smell you.”

and when I’m all alone
I’m riffling through the pockets
in the back of my mind
trying to find spare excuses
so I can call you on the phone

and it’s strange
the way I need a reason
just to call you up and say
that I thought about you today
—  Shane Koyczan, “Afraid,” Visiting Hours
Yesterday,

I wrote to you my love,

I scribbled down words that only make sense to me 

In hopes that one day you’ll see

How much I care

Today, 
I write to you my love, 

I scribble down words I am too afraid to say 

In hopes that you’ll understand 

That we are both different and alike
Mad and wonderful 

And I am still trying to figure out how that could be

Tomorrow, 

I will write to you my love,

I will scribble down words that are written in the sky 

In hopes that you’ll find the similarity between the sun loving the moon 
And me loving you.
—  subjectiveanalysisThe Days Are Changing

– Homura’s Ideal Madoka

Being able to cut off everything you don’t like and freeze everything in its ideal shape is the scariest thing about romantic feelings. And to actually call those actions “love”… is pretty scary.

~ Chiwa Saito (Homura’s VA) and her thoughts on Homura’s love.

In a previous post of mine, we went over Shinbo’s wording of what Madoka felt in the flower field scene. Today, I want to bring attention to comments by Madoka’s VA and how she was asked to play out a ‘cuter’ Madoka – along with a peculiar wording of Urobuchi in a quote I had brought up in my post. First, we’re gonna bring it back here again.

“Madoka is in a special position in this movie too.”

Urobuchi: This time, Madoka appears as a character fabricated by Homura. (…)

Well, we already know the Madoka within Homura’s barrier was the real one, of course. We’re told in the movie and following interviews. She’s just Madoka after regressing all her development and memories. However, was that everything to it? If we focus on Urobuchi’s wording, it seems to point out that Madoka has been molded in some way to fit into this dream world. I believe I might have noted this in a part in the tags…

“It seems as though the script was divided into two acts. Please tell us your opinions of the first act.”

Yuuki: (…) But personally, I was just happy that we got to see normal Madoka again. Although she’s not quite ‘normal’ here.

She talks about how we’re seeing ‘normal’ Madoka again, but goes on to note that she isn’t. How so?

Madoka, as we see her in the barrier, is an idealized version of who she was.

“So Madoka is very special to her.”

Yuuki: For Madoka, who spent so much time crying in the anime, to just smile and be happy all the time should be one of the things that feels very wrong about this movie. That’s because Madoka as she appears here is “Homura-chan’s ideal Madoka”. And this world is “Homura-chan’s ideal world, where she thinks Madoka can live in peace and comfort”.

Saitou: This time, Madoka is kind of like a princess.

Yuuki: Yeah. She’s light and fluffy, has the least idea of what’s going on, and is protected by the others. But she’s always there for Homura-chan whenever Homura-chan gets lonely. [Effects Director] Tsuruoka-san told me that I should act as “Homura-chan’s Best Of Madoka”. 

The dream world is a sweet dream, a place where everything was created in a way that fit what Homura wanted deep inside. Urobuchi and the others note how it’s made to be idealized. There’s nothing bad or wrong within it except for the Nightmares, that are there to act like ‘standard’ magical enemies that they save aside from defeating. It’s also interesting to note how by warding them off, they’re evading souring the dream and reveal it’s worst parts.

All the characters (except for Nagisa and Sayaka who are not affected) within it have been idealized or affected to at least a small point, but the particular case is Madoka as noted by the comments. She’s put in a position that we can see Homura wanted: an ever smiling Madoka who can’t be sad and is endlessly protected by others despite being a magical girl herself, along with having no idea of what’s going on in order to fit Homura’s ideals.

It is interesting to note that this is reinforced later on in the ending by Homura doing the same thing once again, only on a conscious scale, as well. She molds Madoka to be how she wants her to be, in the position she explicitly puts her in. To say she is controlling or that her feelings are just a bit twisted would be an understatement, in my opinion.

This makes the words of Madoka in the flower field fall a little more flat, knowing how much influence Homura probably had over her. While I don’t doubt normal Madoka wanted that, Homura wanted her to stay like that. It’s wishful thinking, so to say, and one could say she used that as justification for how she turned into a Demon later. But, in the end it’s not what series Madoka – known as Ultimate Madoka before being ripped apart – truly feels.

Other tidbits from the interviews that should be read: