You wanna know what my coworker said to me today?
“Well you rely on technology for your hearing”
Excuse me? I don’t have to wear hearing aids you know. I choose to be in the hearing world because I want to communicate with my family and friends, I don’t enjoy shoving those things in my ears every damn day because for starters, what the audiologist doesn’t tell you about them is:
-They get itchy at times and you need to take them out and even then you won’t get relief right away
-After so many hours, they get uncomfortable and actually painful to wear since ears aren’t designed to have foreign objects in there amplifying sound
-Thats just it. They’re aids my hearing will never be the same as a normal person’s and i will always have hearing problems. I will never be “fixed” and you know what? I don’t need to be to fit to YOUR standards.
You know what i told him? To put his hands up to his ears and imagine hearing that from the moment you wake up, till you fall asleep. Every. Single. Day.
Imagine being made fun of by some jackass because, yes, I cannot hear the background music in the store very well, or hear the bell when someone walks in.
Imagine having to train yourself to look there every few seconds to make up for this.
Imagine having to be self-taught in lip-reading or ASL since no one accounts for those being languages in itself. Both very hard to learn on your own. Because there are no classes near you based on where you live.
Until you spend a day with my condition, and having to learn to adapt to a world you were forced to live in despite you knowing something was wrong with you and your family refusing to acknowledge your fears and not understanding why you can’t listen to them or hear what you wanna hear. I can’t select what i can hear. I wish i could. So i could tune out your voice bullying me, taunting and tormenting me over something i can’t control. You could never understand how i feel, because i am a female and am “moody and emotional” according to you. All i have to say to you is
"How fucking dare you".
You have no idea the privilege you were born with. And just because you can hear better than i can doesn’t make you anymore important or make me any less of a person. I”m a human being with feelings. Treat me like you would treat anyone else rather than single me out because i am not like you. I strive to be the best i can be, and i can say with pride as i fall asleep every night, that i am a hell of a lot of a better person than you are and can rest easy.
I’m done crying over you. I’m done wondering why you hate me. You only have power over me if i let you. And this is the part where i fight back.