I’m so glad my tags gave you life! I agree with you 100%.
I am a Christian, and I am very strong in my faith. I’ve had a lot of trouble the past few years with my faith for a lot of reasons. The things I see “Christians” doing are not what I was taught, what I’ve read in the Bible, or what I believe God and Jesus want. I’ve had people tell me I was a bad influence, I was going to hell, and I needed to “get on my knees and pray” because I support gay marriage, don’t believe sex before marriage is the worst, and I curse.
Doesn’t matter that AS AN ANGLO-SAXONIST I’VE STUDIED THE CHANGES IN THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE and can point to language we use every day that was “amoral,” “offensive,” and “sinful” during the Middle Ages.
Doesn’t matter that people cheat, lie, spread hate, disrespect their elders/parents, covet, and break just about every commandment in the Bible - AS LONG AS YOU ARE SEXUALLY PURE IT’S ALL OKAY BC SEX IS THE ONLY SIN. I’ve known people who were waiting for marriage for sex bc they believed that was right for them, but they masturbated and had vibrators, and THEY WERE GOING TO HELL BC THAT WAS LUST IN YOUR HEART. Like…what?? But lying, talking about people, being hateful, and coveting was all okay.
It makes me so angry that Christians spread hate for people outside of their box. That they say you can’t be gay and be Christian, or be in a gay marriage and be Christian. I call bullshit. God is about LOVE. L-O-V-E. How is loving ANYONE wrong in a world full of hate? I think God and Jesus would be rejoicing because two people love each other, want to share that love, build a family, and base that on LOVE. It makes me angry that I worked for a Christian organization that believed no family except a 1st marriage, man and wife, raising 2.5 kids is holy. Joseph loved and raised Jesus as his son, and he was not his father. Hello, Jesus was part of the original non-traditional family.
It just makes me sad. I see people turning away from Christianity, God, and Jesus every day bc of the hateful message Christians spread. I just want to stand on the tallest building and say BUT BUT JESUS IS LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE AND AWESOME AND MY FAITH, MY SPIRITUALITY, MY CHRISTIANITY IS WONDERFUL. But I also want to hide my face and not label myself as a Christian in case someone thinks I’m hateful, narrow-minded, or worse. And wanting to deny my faith? Is a sin in my opinion, and I’ve to deal with that a lot the last few years.
I’ve decided that I want to live my life according to Jesus’ message and what I think God wants us all to do. I don’t cheat, steal, I try not to lie, I live my life and conduct myself by a set of morals. I try to be kind to people, spread love and charity. I teach young people and try to instill in them a sense of decency and try to set a good example. I make a lot of mistakes, I am in no way the Christian or the good person I want to be, but I try to make myself better every day. I pray every day, and though I’m not as close to God as I’d like to be sometimes, I still keep praying, still keeping spreading love, and still keep trying to be a person I think is worthy to make it to Heaven. Maybe I watch, write, and read too much porn, but if I’m going to Hell just for that, then I’ve missed something along the way.
I’m just thankful that I’ve been lucky enough to be raised in a household that promoted Christianity and love, and that God has shown me through my life how to love everyone and accept people despite their differences, and I hope He keeps doing that and using me. I pray almost every day that He will use me to spread his message of LOVE. God has blessed my life on more than one occasion, I have seen His hand move in my life more than once, and though my life is far from perfect and I struggle with a lot, I’ve seen miracles in my life that I know weren’t happenstance.
You are absolutely right. Jesus was a chill guy who wanted us to be happy, and to not do bad things, and most of all, to love each other. Jesus is the best.