recovery life

Remember when it was really fun, everyone, to catch raindrops on your tongue, walk under archways because they were there, and roll around in the sand at the beach? To go all the way to the store for a tiny treat, lie on the grass looking for “God” in the clouds, and make scary monster faces in the mirror? To watch the stars because they were winking at you, count the flowers in the garden by the door, and put Cocoa Puffs up your nose?

Well, everyone, I’m happy to inform you, most of it still is.

Decisions.

I think the weather (rainy, cold and generally shite) might be making me a little lower than usual. But I don’t want to let it get bad again. So today was a bloody fight.

😙

🔸 first up. I’ve decided to go ahead with the rhinoplasty. I sent the email about 5 minutes ago. Yup, I’m telling tumblr before my parents. But my parents are out tonight and I’ll probably tell them in the morning when they’re in an okay mood. Haha, I’ll have to pick my moment. No more spending on extras.. All money is going in to savings from now on. Thanks for the cheap meal idea apieceofamanda <3

🔸I’ve signed up to a beginner improv class. Nothing like jumping in the deep end right? Fuck I don’t know what came over me haha social anxiety is gonna have a field day.

🔸9 days until I’m moved out.

🔸I follow a few people who have done/are doing big overseas trips. Actually a couple of people I know in real life are doing trips… And oh my goodness I’m jealous. An epic trip is going to happen. Obviously is won’t be this Christmas (thanks a lot nose) But the following Christmas for sure. I’m saying it now. So It’s gonna happen.

🔸Time to lift. This butt ain’t gonna grow itself lol. Then sleep (at least it’s cozy when it rains) 😌

Happy Saturday guys <3

You are more than this.

More than your greatest high,
more than your deepest low.

You are far more significant
than your accomplishments
and your shortcomings.

Has no one told you
lately?

Did you
really
need a reminder?
Is your presence,
your energy,
the breath of your passion
not enough?

You are more than this,

and you always have been.

—  Michelle K., More Than This.
I guess in the end all those cliches are true
Someday someone will come along
That makes you realize why it never worked with other people
But I think what really makes its better
Is when you realize there is a hell of a lot more out there
More people to meet and dance with
And more cities to explore in tiny cars with the radio blasting
More letters to write, more books to read, more poetry to attempt
Sometimes it just takes other people to help you see
That you needed no one but yourself all along
—  “Looking back” // a story a day #148 by d.yang