recovery life

Nearly 8 weeks!!! :O

Been in recovery for nearly 8 weeks now! Hard to believe that back then whilst on the NYWO course, i cried about over my frustration of how half a small orange for breakfast was too much… (i now have a huge bowl of cereal every morning) ;)  I was too scared of the dining hall and had to come home as i feared i may collapse and i thought my heart was failing. Things had to change and they did. I finally had no use for anorexia as a coping mechanism anymore.

Nearly 8 weeks later and i’ve gained over 11kg. But most importantly my CONFIDENCE, HAPPINESS, HEALTH and LOVE FOR LIFE!!!!

Choosing recovery was the hardest but also the best thing i’ve ever done. I did it for me and now my life is better than ever!

If i could choose to go back and not have an ed i wouldn’t. Through struggling i have found my true strength, a new confidence and compassion for myself. This awful experience has made me such a strong person and i now value life much more. My passion for music is ever growing and i am one step closer to pursuing a career in music, rather than continuing down the road that would have ultimately lead to death.

I am now determined to love my body and keep moving forward in an ever positive way! (starting with a year in OSLO!) I’m not there yet but i will be. :)

CHOOSE RECOVERY! END OF. :) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Breathe. It’s 2 AM and you’re up sobbing about the boy who may not be yours anymore. Breathe. It’s 8 AM on a Monday and you have to go through another week, barely surviving. Breathe. It’s 1 PM and you feel like breaking down in class.

Breathe. Just breathe, alright? Life won’t always be like this. One day life will treat you the way you deserve. One day you’ll fall asleep knowing for sure that you’re loved. One day you’ll wake up actually excited to be alive. One day it’ll make sense.

But for now all you can just do is breathe.

—  T.G. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #173
Just because the road ahead is long, is no reason to slow down. Just because there is much work to be done, is no reason to get discouraged. It is a reason to get started, to grow, to find new ways, to reach within yourself and discover strength, commitment, and determination. The road ahead is long and difficult, but it’s filled with opportunity. Start what needs starting. Finish what needs finishing. Get on the road. Stay on the road. Don’t give up.
—  Ralph Marston

There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way. It doesn’t need to be painful or empty, you need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write notes on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don’t romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful I promise

Mantra of the day.

—  Emery Allen
The day that holding a cupcake in my hand does not bring me happiness is the day I no longer want to exist. That does not mean I lack spirituality. That means I appreciate the sweet things in life and that I really like cupcakes!
—  Lena Slaughter

I am not sure if I have mentioned this before but if so it never hurts to reiterate the wonderful things about sobriety, so I will say it again. The sights and sounds of life are so vibrant without the haze of alcohol clouding my senses. Fourteen months since my last drink and every day feels like a rebirth. I am grateful for each and everyday that I get to begin life anew.

~ Lena Slaughter

If you’re going to be passionate about something, be passionate about learning. If you’re going to fight something, fight for those in need. If you’re going to question something, question authority. If you’re going to lose something, lose your inhibitions. If you’re going to gain something, gain respect and confidence. And if you’re going to hate something, hate the false idea that you are not capable of your dreams.
—  Daniel Golston