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these are the anons who used to stalk me.

emily was the main one. otherwise known as emilynoel. if you have followed her for a while you my have seen her talk about me. pip otherwise known as rainbowfever was the other. they kind of switched off on who was the main culprit a lot. sometimes they tag teamed… and one they even had one of pip’s friends join in. pathetic. there is a story…and i am just going to copy and paste it from the message i sent when i told one of my closest tumblr friends about it….

this is the message i sent to her….”ok. well. i decided to just get it over with. this is a message i sent pip when all this crap started. pip (rainbowfever on tumblr) is my ex boyfriend. he is now with emily (emilynoel on tumblr). baila is a girl pip cheated on me with. she is some weird online stalker now to me, and him, and apparently emily. i had a tumblr before the one i have now. and i had to delete it because i kept getting messages from emily and pip anonymously. and so i made a new one hoping to escape it… nope. they found it and continue. and well, i never talk about them specifically on tumblr. i try to just treat them as if they are anonymous. they talk about me by name all the time. i only look at their pages when i get the nasty messages because i want to see if it’s really them. and it never fails. they start posting as soon as i get the messages. plus, just to be double sure, i have always had a tracker on my page that tells me where the people are from who post on my page. the hate always comes from reading, london and lawrenceville (which is in atlanta), georgia. now, i will say, my cousin and my sister got really tired of the crap they were sending me around the time that they started calling me fat and ugly…. so they started retaliating. and i just told them as long as they leave me out of it, and don’t tell me what they’re doing, to do what they wanted. they are just being protective. and they really hate pip because he was a total scumbag…so i guess they enjoy it. but anyways…i just needed to get it off my chest. since i know you follow us both…and you like us both. it’s so hard for me to just keep quiet. cause everyone loves her. and i’m just me you know? and i feel if i speak up everyone will just hate me. and i hope you don’t now that you know. she has said some terrible things about me. and so has he. calling me crazy. and telling me i’m a stalker. and 100 other awful things. and none of it is true. any hate mail she and pip ever got was probably from baila. i know i have received some from her, so why would she not do it to pip and emily too? and only in the past month has anything come from my side (sister and cousin) and i’m pretty sure even that has stopped. yet they still harass me. i really don’t understand it. everyone around says it’s jealousy and some of the questions they ask definitely point that direction (even the nice questions are from them a lot of the time)… but i think it’s now an obsession. i don’t know…. maybe if you are okay with all of this you can help me…or just be there for me when it happens. =/ i hope this all makes sense and doesn’t freak you out. i just had to tell you. you’re my friend. and friends should know.”

this is a message i sent to pip when it all started in hopes he would grow up… “ok dearest pippy. i appreciate you giving me so much attention, but it is really just humiliating to yourself more than anyone.
first of all… i understand what brought you to think i’m ‘stalking’… but nat wanting drama and wanting to live my own life to myself, i ignored it and thought you would be mature enough to live your own life too. apparently not.
so, for the past 2 years your terrible baila has been stalking ME. sending me messages constantly. i guessed she had moved her obsession to me after we broke up, cause based on everything she said, it seemed so. she was trying to talk to the people i dated and even tried get my phone number from one of them. i always ignored it, and about…i dunno… 6 months ago she started talking about you and your girlfriend, and telling me all about you guys, and i decided to be a nice person, and send your girlfriend a message telling her this girl was crazy, because, well… you may think the worst of me, but i didn’t want her psycho babble to scare her off. i’m happy, why shouldn’t you be?
this crap has continued…and recently (the day i made my tumblr) she send me your tumblr. being a human being, i clicked on it, and i thought, hmmmm… i have a lot of down time while editing pictures for clients, why not make one? when i made it i may have followed some of the people you did, but did i once say anything to you? or contact you? or your girlfriend? no. i thought if i did my own thing you either wouldn’t notice i had one (preferable) or you would notice and live your own damn life like a mature person would.
but no. you made a huge ordeal. i get a few messages telling me i was a stalker harassing you and your girlfriend. considering i didn’t even know what a tumblr was until i made mine, yeah. not me. if your girlfriend was receiving ‘threatening messages’ i can promise it wasn’t me. i can almost guarantee it was baila. she obviously has a sick mind and wont leave either of us alone.
after this i figured once again that you would be mature about it (wrong again) and realize i wasn’t trying to bother and live your own life like i was… and you have made it extremely obvious that you are intent on not doing that. seriously. i haven’t once looked at your tumblr after i made my own except when i was being accused of stalking you because i was once again, human, and curious. so please, stop looking at mine if you are so disgusted by it. it honestly is really sad.
you can believe this or not. but i’m going to do what makes jeff and i happy, and screw you if you don’t like it! so, you can either get on with your life, or you can keep being childish. either way, i just figured you should know the truth. when you didn’t know it, you had an excuse to be a dick. now that you do, if you continue, well, that’s just embarrassing for you”

of course he just kept going considering that was in april. continuing on from the messages i sent to my tumblr friend explaining the whole thing…. she asked about what they had posted about me….so i found some of the stuff….and if any of you are following them you might recognize the parts in here from their posts…. “as for the whole situation…..=/ i really don’t know what their problem is. it’s so immature. i was always nice to him after we broke up. let’s see….we broke up in june of 2008. and considering how it all ended i think i took it very well and i showed no animosity towards him. i even sent him a message on his birthday saying i hoped all was well. and he even asked me to still be friends with him….which i refused. i simply told him that all was forgiven, but i was better without him in my life. and even though i was still getting crazy messages from baila i just lived my life. i was so in love with jeff… completely done with pip…and happy that he had moved on too. and when she sent me his tumblr adress (and emily’s) i looked. i’m human. and curious. and i had no clue what tumblr even was, so when i saw what it was like, i decided to make one! i figured it would be a nice little getaway from facebook and people i knew. and as usualy when joining something new, you have no clue how to start. so i started by looking at their sites and the things they posted….and the ones i liked, i followed. i had no clue that they would…or could even notice. but just my luck… the day after i made it, i check tumblr and i have about….20 messages from people calling me a psycho stalker and how dare i harass such a perfect girl and just so many other things…not anonymous… and i caught on and checked their sites to see what had happened. they both had posted on their pages…. “OMG.. READ..
mermaidbrianna.tumblr.com
read this…
she added everyone who is friends and following us… and what…. you are delusional!”
“OH MY GOD!!!
my totally crazy!! like seriously totally crazy ex-girlfriend has managed to find mine and emily’s Tumblrs and she has added all of our friends…! ALL OF YOU! i think there is maybe like a handful of people she has added that are not following or being followed by us!
help us!
she stalks us like a scary amount!”
“Posting this again for those who didn’t see…
Ok so it has come to mine and Pip’s attention that his super creepy/stalker ex girlfriend (let me add, they broke up several years ago) has somehow found our tumblrs and is going around following everyone who follows me & who I follow (which she has now apparently hidden from her page, but we’ve already seen it hahhh)…including people I know in real life. This same girl has been sending me threatening facebook messages through fake accounts also, and that’s just a sliver of the shit she is trying to cause. I’m not going to put up with any of this nonsense and I don’t want this to blow up…but just so everyone knows….if this tumblr follows you/is already following you (check your followers because I know she’s already following a bunch of you):
http://mermaidbrianna.tumblr.com/
please block her right away. Don’t send her messages or anything….simply block her and hopefully this ridiculousness will all end soon and this girl will go away & quit trying to worm her way into our lives! Thanks xo”
“you will have read that on either mine or emily’s tumblr…
we found you because you added EVERYONE WE KNOW!
just leave us alone you crazy crazy person…
we dont care about you… we hate you”

….and that was only the first few weeks (i went into pip’s archive to find them so that’s not even including what she has said…i’d look those up for you too but she doesn’t have an archive and im not going to sort through her shit to find it all =/) they have called me every name in the book and have basically made me out to be some psychopath stalker that lives to harass them and can’t do anything but stalk them. which you very well know isn’t true. it seems like it’s the opposite. they both spend hours looking at my site. going through my archive. and sending me harassing messages. i don’t post 99% of them because a lot are completely disgusting and vile. some are really personal. and most are just stupid. but you’ve probably seem the ones i have posted. that whole anonymous thing about them calling me fat? that was emily. it’s sad. when i first saw her tumblr i thought “we might have been friends if we weren’t connected by him”….and then the way she just turned into the biggest hateful bitch i have ever encountered without even being provoked made me so disgusted by her. she acts all sweet to everyone….but the things she has said about and to me are hideous and shows her true colors. if i was immature like her and pip i’d probably tell everyone. but i have decided to just be the bigger person and let them be the asses. plus, i doubt anyone would believe me. as i said before, she is the perfect emilynoel who everyone loves…and i’m no one. it’s really a pathetic thing they’re doing. they seem just to be…well……obsessed. i’d love to hear your thoughts…. it confuses and infuriates me.”

so….that is all i will say. i think i covered it all…. and i might lose followers because some of you are loyal to emily…..but that’s life. i’d rather know my followers know everything. and if they stay loyal to me, then it will warm my heart even more. i am just tired of having followers post her pictures and stuff on my dash when i know she may look pretty and interesting, but she is sick inside. i didn’t even post about the sickness inside of pip. i know things that she probably doesn’t even know. but my goal is not to hurt their relationship. it is to be honest with all of you.

and i guess it’s random, but some of you may not believe pip and i were even together and i’m just trying to cause emily and pip drama… if you need proof go here….it’s a myspace pip made for us years ago.

i hate drama. and i know this is drama. and now that i got this off of my chest i wont talk about it unless anyone has questions. and PLEASE, if you have any comments, questions, accusations, whatever……send me a message. get everything in the open. i am happy to answer. you are all amazing, and i hope you are all having an amazing day.

***EDIT***

if any of you feel the urge to share this story, please feel free to reblog it or share some of it…. your own version….or whatever. it just really bothers me how people fawn over them when they are such jerks to anyone who isn’t complimenting them or who they don’t like. i would not mind at all. as long as you don’t change the truth or reality of what happened.

For the Savior Queen Debacle

Nothing against OQ and CS but ….

Don’t expect us to settle for some ‘cute friendship’ when everyone knows it could be one of the greatest love story ever told

This isn’t about sex. Not for us .

It’s about history, TRUE sexual equally, and respect.

And this whole Savior Queen business ? It’s a joke . A bone thrown at us as if they’re saying,

"Here , chew on this and be grateful."

But that’s not how it works . That’s not how happiness works. Happiness, pride, and a sense of fulfillment is deserving by all , not just the righteous few.

After all, there are alot more proud and out LGBT so it makes senses that we’re not that easy to brush aside or silence like it was even twenty years ago.

And I’m proud of that.

Too bad Eddie and Adam aren’t. In fact, I dare to go far enough to say , they may be a little afraid even ….

so anonymous.....here is my part of the conversation.

i hope it makes sense without her end…. but either way, i’ve answered your question!

ok. well. i decided to just get it over with. this is a message i sent pip when all this crap started. pip (rainbowfever on tumblr) is my ex boyfriend. he is now with emily (emilynoel on tumblr). baila is a girl pip cheated on me with. she is some weird online stalker now to me, and him, and apparently emily. i had a tumblr before the one i have now. and i had to delete it because i kept getting messages from emily and pip anonymously. and so i made a new one hoping to escape it… nope. they found it and continue. and well, i never talk about them specifically on tumblr. i try to just treat them as if they are anonymous. they talk about me by name all the time. i only look at their pages when i get the nasty messages because i want to see if it’s really them. and it never fails. they start posting as soon as i get the messages. plus, just to be double sure, i have always had a tracker on my page that tells me where the people are from who post on my page. the hate always comes from reading, london and lawrenceville (which is in atlanta), georgia. now, i will say, my cousin and my sister got really tired of the crap they were sending me around the time that they started calling me fat and ugly…. so they started retaliating. and i just told them as long as they leave me out of it, and don’t tell me what they’re doing, to do what they wanted. they are just being protective. and they really hate pip because he was a total scumbag…so i guess they enjoy it. but anyways…i just needed to get it off my chest. since i know you follow us both…and you like us both. it’s so hard for me to just keep quiet. cause everyone loves her. and i’m just me you know? and i feel if i speak up everyone will just hate me. and i hope you don’t now that you know. she has said some terrible things about me. and so has he. calling me crazy. and telling me i’m a stalker. and 100 other awful things. and none of it is true. any hate mail she and pip ever got was probably from baila. i know i have received some from her, so why would she not do it to pip and emily too? and only in the past month has anything come from my side (sister and cousin) and i’m pretty sure even that has stopped. yet they still harass me. i really don’t understand it. everyone around says it’s jealousy and some of the questions they ask definitely point that direction (even the nice questions are from them a lot of the time)… but i think it’s now an obsession. i don’t know…. maybe if you are okay with all of this you can help me…or just be there for me when it happens. =/ i hope this all makes sense and doesn’t freak you out. i just had to tell you. you’re my friend. and friends should know.

"ok dearest pippy. i appreciate you giving me so much attention, but it is really just humiliating to yourself more than anyone.
first of all… i understand what brought you to think i’m ‘stalking’… but nat wanting drama and wanting to live my own life to myself, i ignored it and thought you would be mature enough to live your own life too. apparently not.
so, for the past 2 years your terrible baila has been stalking ME. sending me messages constantly. i guessed she had moved her obsession to me after we broke up, cause based on everything she said, it seemed so. she was trying to talk to the people i dated and even tried get my phone number from one of them. i always ignored it, and about…i dunno… 6 months ago she started talking about you and your girlfriend, and telling me all about you guys, and i decided to be a nice person, and send your girlfriend a message telling her this girl was crazy, because, well… you may think the worst of me, but i didn’t want her psycho babble to scare her off. i’m happy, why shouldn’t you be?
this crap has continued…and recently (the day i made my tumblr) she send me your tumblr. being a human being, i clicked on it, and i thought, hmmmm… i have a lot of down time while editing pictures for clients, why not make one? when i made it i may have followed some of the people you did, but did i once say anything to you? or contact you? or your girlfriend? no. i thought if i did my own thing you either wouldn’t notice i had one (preferable) or you would notice and live your own damn life like a mature person would.
but no. you made a huge ordeal. i get a few messages telling me i was a stalker harassing you and your girlfriend. considering i didn’t even know what a tumblr was until i made mine, yeah. not me. if your girlfriend was receiving ‘threatening messages’ i can promise it wasn’t me. i can almost guarantee it was baila. she obviously has a sick mind and wont leave either of us alone.
after this i figured once again that you would be mature about it (wrong again) and realize i wasn’t trying to bother and live your own life like i was… and you have made it extremely obvious that you are intent on not doing that. seriously. i haven’t once looked at your tumblr after i made my own except when i was being accused of stalking you because i was once again, human, and curious. so please, stop looking at mine if you are so disgusted by it. it honestly is really sad.
you can believe this or not. but i’m going to do what makes jeff and i happy, and screw you if you don’t like it! so, you can either get on with your life, or you can keep being childish. either way, i just figured you should know the truth. when you didn’t know it, you had an excuse to be a dick. now that you do, if you continue, well, that’s just embarrassing for you

you have no clue how much it means to me that you are so supportive about this. it really warms my heart. and no, you don’t sound pathetic at all. i have come to really love you since meeting you….and i consider you as an extremely close friend as well. i find that when you meet someone online you share a closer connection. a person’s words can reveal more than just sitting around with a person can. and i feel such a connection with you…from the moment we started talking. like….friends-at-first-sight
the message i wrote to him was sent around the time i deleted my old tumblr to make the new one. he never replied.
as for the whole situation…..=/ i really don’t know what their problem is. it’s so immature. i was always nice to him after we broke up. let’s see….we broke up in june of 2008. and considering how it all ended i think i took it very well and i showed no animosity towards him. i even sent him a message on his birthday saying i hoped all was well. and he even asked me to still be friends with him….which i refused. i simply told him that all was forgiven, but i was better without him in my life. and even though i was still getting crazy messages from baila i just lived my life. i was so in love with jeff… completely done with pip…and happy that he had moved on too. and when she sent me his tumblr adress (and emily’s) i looked. i’m human. and curious. and i had no clue what tumblr even was, so when i saw what it was like, i decided to make one! i figured it would be a nice little getaway from facebook and people i knew. and as usualy when joining something new, you have no clue how to start. so i started by looking at their sites and the things they posted….and the ones i liked, i followed. i had no clue that they would…or could even notice. but just my luck… the day after i made it, i check tumblr and i have about….20 messages from people calling me a psycho stalker and how dare i harass such a perfect girl and just so many other things…not anonymous… and i caught on and checked their sites to see what had happened. they both had posted on their pages…. “OMG.. READ..
mermaidbrianna.tumblr.com
read this…
she added everyone who is friends and following us… and what…. you are delusional!”
“OH MY GOD!!!
my totally crazy!! like seriously totally crazy ex-girlfriend has managed to find mine and emily’s Tumblrs and she has added all of our friends…! ALL OF YOU! i think there is maybe like a handful of people she has added that are not following or being followed by us!
help us!
she stalks us like a scary amount!”
“Posting this again for those who didn’t see…
Ok so it has come to mine and Pip’s attention that his super creepy/stalker ex girlfriend (let me add, they broke up several years ago) has somehow found our tumblrs and is going around following everyone who follows me & who I follow (which she has now apparently hidden from her page, but we’ve already seen it hahhh)…including people I know in real life. This same girl has been sending me threatening facebook messages through fake accounts also, and that’s just a sliver of the shit she is trying to cause. I’m not going to put up with any of this nonsense and I don’t want this to blow up…but just so everyone knows….if this tumblr follows you/is already following you (check your followers because I know she’s already following a bunch of you):
http://mermaidbrianna.tumblr.com/
please block her right away. Don’t send her messages or anything….simply block her and hopefully this ridiculousness will all end soon and this girl will go away & quit trying to worm her way into our lives! Thanks xo”
“you will have read that on either mine or emily’s tumblr…
we found you because you added EVERYONE WE KNOW!
just leave us alone you crazy crazy person…
we dont care about you… we hate you”
….and that was only the first few weeks (i went into pip’s archive to find them so that’s not even including what she has said…i’d look those up for you too but she doesn’t have an archive and im not going to sort through her shit to find it all =/) they have called me every name in the book and have basically made me out to be some psychopath stalker that lives to harass them and can’t do anything but stalk them. which you very well know isn’t true. it seems like it’s the opposite. they both spend hours looking at my site. going through my archive. and sending me harassing messages. i don’t post 99% of them because a lot are completely disgusting and vile. some are really personal. and most are just stupid. but you’ve probably seem the ones i have posted. that whole anonymous thing about them calling me fat? that was emily. it’s sad. when i first saw her tumblr i thought “we might have been friends if we weren’t connected by him”….and then the way she just turned into the biggest hateful bitch i have ever encountered without even being provoked made me so disgusted by her. she acts all sweet to everyone….but the things she has said about and to me are hideous and shows her true colors. if i was immature like her and pip i’d probably tell everyone. but i have decided to just be the bigger person and let them be the asses. plus, i doubt anyone would believe me. as i said before, she is the perfect emilynoel who everyone loves…and i’m no one. it’s really a pathetic thing they’re doing. they seem just to be…well……obsessed. i’d love to hear your thoughts…. it confuses and infuriates me. jeff thinks pip isn’t completely over me… he is always sending me messages about jeff and me and asking me about things pertaining to things he was always jealous about when we were together… it’s pretty obvious when you think about it. but overall i just wish they’d get a life. today alone emily has spent over an hour on my page. and pip has spent about 30 minutes. i just don’t get it. =/
but again, thank you. i am so relieved you know. and that you support me. it means so much to me. you have no idea. you’re amazing.

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one of the things that is so laughable to to me is they way him and emily talk about them being apart and everything being perfect and how they will live together and be together forever….because that’s how we were. we met on facebook. on hot or not. we met….he he and i started talking…..6 months later we were “official” and then 2 months later he cheated on me. and one day he just stopped talking to me. no note or notice of what was going on. i just never heard from him. he had some girl i hated message me saying they were together and that i should move on. …i was sad and that’s when i got with the guy who raped me. i rushed into it to get over pip…and it was a mistake obviously. pip started talking to me again during the time following…just a little side note….he is a scumbag. one of his friends told me he is pretty much addicted to sex. he goes to clubs and sleeps with anyone he can get. he used to make me do things over the webcam that i wasn’t comfortable with….but i loved him, so i did it. he was always asking me to take dirty pictures for him….and of course…the first time we really talked again he got me all infatuated again and at the end of the conversation asked me for more pictures. even though we weren’t together. after a few months of talking again, i let him back in my life….only to find out again, through a girl, baila, that he was cheating on me. he had already bought a plane ticket to spend christmas with me…. and well… it was non refundable and i think he realized it after a while… a week after he and i broke up he wanted me back. he came running back and i wouldn’t take him…but he said he was coming and i could either welcome him or not… so i told him i’d be okay with it, but we were just friends. obviously i still had feelings for him. he just broke my heart. when the time came around he came…and we made it official once again…. i hadn’t had sex except for being raped. and i didn’t want to… but he basically made me. on the third night he was there he put the moves on me and i resisted and he just kept pushing… but it was like he wouldn’t take no for an answer. i was scared because of what had happened to me in the past… and he pushed it all the way. and he made me have sex with him every day he was there. sometimes more than once. i felt used. and i know that he really was using me. we had a plan and everything was falling together. and i loved him. so he left. and his requests for pictures turned to videos…and they got more and more strange and awkward. but we wee both working towards the goal to be together. and then my grandma died and he came back for the funeral. once again, he used me over and over. and he made videos of it. and i hated it. he even did it on my grandma’s bed. i just can’t even understand his twisted mind. the day he left i got a message from his ex girlfriend telling me that he slept with her before he came to see me. her story fit with the timeline….he made an excuse to leave that exact day and time. and it all just made sense. i confronted him and he denied it…and trying to have faith in him, i moved past it. hoping so much that it wasn’t true. then a few months later he let me look in his e-mail account for something i sent him…while looking for it, i found things…. pictures from girls… they were kinda old though, so i ignored it…then i found some pictures he had sent himself with his phone… it was pictures of him skyping with some random girl. i could see him face…just staring… and she was dong , well…many different things, nude of course. but the kicker, this was 2 days before he left to visit me for christmas. technically we weren’t together, but he told me he loved me and was devoted to me and would never hurt me again…. finding this broke my heart. things started crumbling… those mixed with all the rest…. then i got in my accident and revealed my suicidal secrets…and he bailed. as in…literally, stopped talking to me. blocked me on skype and facebook and…well….everything…. and i didn’t hear from him again until i was well into my relationship with jeff. he is such a dirtbag. he is a great actor though. oh, and you are probably wondering what attracted me to him based on how he is now….he wasn’t like that then. he has changed into this scummy looking “hardcore” guy/girl thing. he was never like that. and when he met emily, he was still with another girl who he had been dating for a year. and he dumped her for emily. which shows he hasn’t changed one bit inside. he just tries to fool those around him. he makes me sick. but yeah….that’s what happened. and that’s not even half of the crap he put me though. believe it or not, that’s the nutshell version.

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i’m right there with you. i mean, he and emily met on chatroulette…. what do you think he was doing on there? i’m 99% sure he was trying to get girls to take their clothes off for him. and as for him getting girls online……you’re right, he isn’t capable of anything more. i learned while with him that he is not willing to mature. he told me on many occasions that he refused to grow up. he wanted to be young forever and was really upset at the thought of aging. upon breaking up i talked to a few of his friends (i had to break up with him through his friends notifying him for me since he wouldn’t talk to me) they were shocked at the side of him i saw that they never had. i had been with him for over 2 years…and they had known him since he was a child, and they had never seen what i did. he is a sneaky slimy snake. he shows what he wants you to see….and he acts like who he thinks you want him to be… i don’t know if he even knows who he really is. and that is just so sad. especially because i’m positive all emily knows about him is lies…..because that’s all i knew. when talking to him friends i found out so many things….about all the times he went home with girls during our relationship. and just all the lies he told me…that i suspected but gave him the benefit of the doubt with them… and emily will be in for a rude awakening. she is under the impression that they will be together forever in a happy little bubble of perfectness. and well, if it happens….whatever. good for them. i hope they will leave me alone. if it doesn’t, then she’s screwed because she refuses to prepare for it. she is working hard to got there, but i am positive pip has not put any effort in. he is the most useless piece of shit i’ve ever met. no job. no education. no life apart from parties and sex. it’s just baffling.

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maybe you might be interested in seeing how happy we were…lol. just like pip and emily. he made this to make up for cheating on me. pathetic hu? http://www.myspace.com/468503297

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goodness, i’m so so happy i told you too. actually having someone who knows is amazing. it’s nice to vent. lol and i almost feel bad for emily too…. i actually would feel bad if she wasn’t the biggest bitch i had ever come across in my life. some of the things shes said? it just makes me wonder if she’s as screwed up as him. if she can put up this chippy facade to everyone and then when she is hiding behind a gray face she turns into the nastiest most vile troll ever. it’s all so……wrong. and i hate it all, but it makes me feel a little bit of pleasure to know that they obsess over me….lol i know it probably sounds weird. but it shows their weaknesses….and i just sit back and watch and laugh. i have jeff… and if we were as sad as them we could have made him a tumblr too and done what pip and emily are doing to me. but we didn’t. we barely even talk about it unless i need a help with a witty comment to say back to one of their ridiculous questions. and as you’ve probably seen, i try to stay as neutral as possible to their questions. always being nice and forward in my answers. but never offensive back to them. i wont stoop to that. it’s so childish. gah.
and the myspace page…..i completely know what you mean. it’s all so eerily similar. i watched one of their videos because i was curious….and it was like watching me and him way back when, and i couldn’t even watch it all because it grossed me out and made me feel icky that i was ever even with him. i think emily knows about the page though. i forgot about it until earlier this year….then baila sent me the link to it…i can only imagine she sent it to them also….it’s just her way. i wouldn’t even doubt that it was her who told them i made a tumblr lol
such a confusing situation. but i have you to support me and help me through it! and it makes me so happy! i seriously teared up when i read your message saying you were going to be on my side and didn’t want anything to do with them. it means the world to me. you are so amazing. and i’m so happy i met you. i seriously say it all the time lol but i mean it. completely.

there you go anon!

anonymous asked:

I find it odd that he kept the sweatshirt so long....I mean, maybe it's just me...but whenever I break up with someone/get dumped, I confiscate their shit within a week. Kinda proves he still had feelings for a long time if you ask me.

agreed. he still has a victoria’s secret PINK sweater i gave him too…and he still wears it. i mean…it’s weird enough that it’s a girl’s hoodie….but the fact that it was mine. not only that…there are white sunglasses i bought for him he still wears and a jim morrison shirt also. i totally threw out everything he bought me or that was his after he wouldn’t respond to my requests to send them back. and i sold whatever i could get money out of which was awesome, cause i got tons of money off a couple things lol. but i mean…..he has had that sweater over 2 years now…and he has been in at least 2 relationships that i know of through those years…. i definitely think he has feeling for me still. so many people have said that to me. even my own family. and the fact that he decided to burn my sweater NOW… this long after….and had to video it…. and post it…. he wants to hurt me. lol like i probably still hurt him by completely moving on when he can’t. poor wittle girl/boy =( hopefully he can heal one day.