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Life isn’t happily ever after… It’s work. The person you love is rarely worthy of how big your love is. Because no one is worthy of that and maybe no one deserves that burden of it, either. You’ll be let down. You’ll be disappointed and have your trust broken and have a lot of real sucky days. You lose more than you win. You hate the person you love as much as you love him. But you roll up your sleeves and work - at everything - because that’s what growing older is.
—  Dennis Lehane, Mystic River
Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called work, family, health, friends, and integrity. And you’re keeping all of them in the air. But one day you finally come to understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. The other four balls…are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered.
—  James Patterson, Suzanne’s Diary for Nicholas
“I love you. I love you. Alright?”

I just stared at him. I was in disbelief. I didn’t want to believe it was the last time I’ll ever have him in my life. But it was. And on the last day I finally learned he did love me after all.

—  T.G. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #183
And when the event, the big change in your life, is simply an insight—isn’t that a strange thing? That absolutely nothing changes except that you see things differently and you’re less fearful and less anxious and generally stronger as a result: isn’t it amazing that a completely invisible thing in your head can feel realer than anything you’ve experienced before? You see things more clearly and you know that you’re seeing them more clearly. And it comes to you that this is what it means to love life, this is all anybody who talks seriously about God is ever talking about. Moments like this.
—  Jonathan Franzen, The Corrections

i cant help but just stare at the ceiling every night and think of these impossible scenarios of you and i where everything plays out so perfectly. its just us. silly of me i know… but i guess theres no harm in pretending.

—s.g. #excerpt from a book ill never write #4

This can’t be the end, but it is. We used to love each other so much and now the only thing we know how to do is make each other cry. We tried so hard to save what we had, fix all the damage, and give it another shot, but we were beyond fixing. We both should’ve known that. I didn’t want to say goodbye, and neither did you, but by staying together, the only ones we were hurting were ourselves. Oh god I wish it could’ve been different, because I really loved him. Maybe one day, when we’re right for each other and we are completely different people, we’ll have a fresh start. We can try again, and I swear next time I’ll love you right.
—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #53
Ma said that I was enchanted by you. I was surprised at the appropriateness of this word. I was enchanted by you, enchanted by your world, enchanted by the state of crazy drunken love you put me in, enchanted by your vision of me, and I followed you dizzily into an idyllic Edenic garden of love, the likes of which I could never have imagined leaving, so suffused with love.
—  Qiu Miaojin, from Last Words from Montmartre
My favorite book, she claims of which I have no memory was about how little kids get one toy that they love more than all the others, and even when its fur has been rubbed off, and it’s gone saggy with bits missing, the little child still thinks it’s the most beautiful toy in the world, and can’t bear to be parted from it.
That’s how it works, when people really love each other, Mum whispered on the way out in the Debenhams lift, as if she was confessing some hideous and embarrassing secret. But, the thing is, darling, it doesn’t happen to ones who have sharp edges, or break if they get dropped, or ones made of silly synthetic stuff that doesn’t last. You have to be brave and let the other person know who you are and what you feel.
—  Helen Fielding, Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason