I honestly don’t know what to do anymore tbh. I feel like I am such a failure, guys. I’ve binged again, like for the third time this week. I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know if I should fast and restrict calories (which makes me feel awesome and gives me good results but it’s hard to do when my parents are around), if I should eat healthy and try to have a balanced diet (which I have been doing for almost a year but it hasn’t given me the results I expected), or if I should just give up (no, I actually know I’M NOT FUCKING GIVING UP).
But why is everything so difficult? I want to lose weight but all I lose is control… I mean I don’t know if I should talk with someone about my problems with food because there’s no middle term: I either starve myself or I binge; I think I’m okay one day and then the other I’m like “ew why are you so fat”, and then I see food and I just kind of give up and Idk… being around people who eat chocolate on a daily basis and still they are the thinnest people ever doesn’t help at all.
Thanks if someone has actually spent a second of their day reading this, I’m sorry I just had to express myself.