It makes me really sad that I don’t have the possibility of a surprise natural pregnancy. When I lurk on infertility message boards I read people’s signatures and I see so many with “surprise natural bfp!” And it just makes me want to punch something. Yes I am super jealous, I can admit it.
At least today I didn’t start spotting at 11 dpo like last time but that doesn’t mean anything.
My bronchitis cough has still not gone away! Tonight it is actually worse than it has been in days.
I told my husband tonight that I had been wanting to dye my hair purple for a while now, he told me I should do it. I might.ETA: I’ve also hit the point where every twinge I feel is “oh god was that a cramp? I bet it was a cramp.” Like I know it will probably fail and even though I know that there’s still that little spark of hope that will proceed to kill me when blood comes or I have to look at my 1000th bfn.