Goodbye College Life.
I’ve came to a conclusion: after this Spring semester, I won’t be going to college in the Fall. I guess you can say I’m dropping out of college but to me, it’s more like a break. It’ll give me time to think things through and continue to learn what I find interesting and uninteresting for free. I feel like I’m wasting my time in college. Time and money to be exact. I’ve changed my major three times already and each time, I felt more lost, unsure and confused.
Who knows if I’ll ever go back to college. Maybe I will. Lately, it’s more leaning towards the never coming back side. I mean… after all, it isn’t for everyone, right?
Just as everyone else that attends college, I’m unhappy and broke. I’m unhappy because I can hear my bank account crying as it’s quickly losing money for books and lab fees. I’m unhappy because I haven’t found my place in the world. I’m unhappy because I know I can find myself and whatever I love and passionate about outside the four walls we sit in for an hour and fifteen minutes.
If I do continue with this route, I can picture myself getting a degree and not knowing what to do with it. Stressing over the $50,000 dollars I’ve borrowed and owe back. Not knowing how to pay that off as I try to make a living for myself. This part probably sounds like I’m counteracting myself because nowadays you can’t get a great paying job without a college degree.
Would I rather have a great paying job that makes me work more hours and spend less time with family or friends or have a descent paying job that gives me time to enjoy life? I hate how everything is about money. I hate the fact that a piece of paper controls everyone’s life…and maybe a person’s way of thinking. Money isn’t everything, sure it can buy you anything but it can’t buy you happiness.
I don’t know if this decision is a good one but it’s worth a try. I don’t seem like I have nothing to lose. Who knows, maybe this will turn out to be something extraordinary.