Hello Anon , this is so sad to hear from you but I’m kind of glad you sent this ask to me I’m gonna try and help you in everything you need so please don’t hesticate to send me more asks if you have the need. I’m gonna try to explain you few things for breaking this horrible wall you’ve infront of you.
I don’t know if you have more problems apart of this but sometimes our personal life influences our drawings , for example if you have problems at home or in school you will prob feel very frustated and this block you so much in all the ways. I’m telling you this because it’s was my problem and maybe you’re in the same situation I were. For more problems you have , please try to think positive! I know it’s very difficult but if you try , little by little you will start dealing with everything. A daily excercice I tried to do once in order to stay positive was something I read on tumblr and it’s really helpful: try not to write on the internet bad feelings or whatever neg you think about. I hope I’m not hurting yourself with this… I just want you to be happy.
Now the important thing about the problem you asked: your mood influences your drawings. Please don’t give up , if you LIKE drawing you can always stop by some days but you will have the urge to come back to your pencil , you will be more inspired!! You aren’t the only one who have problems like this. I’ve a freind who is in a similar situation too and she stopped drawing , it’s been a month since then and now she has fears and insecurities. Obviously not all the people is the same , some can surpass their problems better than others but try to think that you’re not the only one and if others can , YOU CAN ALSO DO IT you can fight over this art-block! and It’s OK not to improve in 4 months , it’s the same as I told you before but this doesn’t mean you aren’t good! The biggest enemy we ALL have is the fear of failiture , beat it with courage. Maybe this will help you too , I really suggest you to start reading other kind of comics ( not only manga) and also something that really helps me tons when I feel bad is going outside alone and walk around the street wihtout anything in mind. Try to relax Anon , there will always be someone who draws better than us but you know what? you’re unique in this world.