But baby, I’m just passing time ×

Oliver’s in Granger Market, Newcastle


Raspberry Nutella Brownie from Pet Lamb, Granger Market, Newcastle

- I always want you when I’m coming down -

One year ago, on this day,
I told you I had feelings for you.
I was used to rejection. So used to it. That it didn’t even hurt me when you explained and apologised and did the two again.
Rejection is the same as being unwanted.
As much as people tell me it’s different because there are ‘plenty of fish in the sea’,
One person didn’t want you enough.
But go ahead,
Glorify it. Make me seem like the strong-type who’d sing to Gloria Gainer instead of crying into my pillow.
Make me into a girl who doesn’t care about what a boy thinks.
Honestly, the truth?
I break every time I think of it.
He didn’t want me.
And never will.

// i can’t be philosophical about it because rejection sucks //

100th post!

When I started writing here I wasn’t sure where it would go, but it has been quite an enjoyable ride. I’ve also hit 5000 followers. In a week it will be my 3 month Tumblrversary. So it’s been a week of milestones. I want to thank everyone that has supported me and sent encouraging messages. 

On another note, I’ve been writing more this year than I think I’ve ever written. It’s been quite constructive to have an audience and get an idea of what works. I also like the couple of experimental poems that I wrote. I’ll try to write a few more experimental ones in the next few weeks. Poems get monotonous when they follow too closely to structures. 

Once again, thanks to everyone for being so supportive! Now go outside and take a walk or climb a tree!

Randy W.