It was odd. Never in his life, had he ever felt the need to have random sex. Well- not that he could actually recall- Not that his body would actually allow him to remember.. But, he’d never had sex, sex for the sake of fucking- sex because he was angry, or because he was hurting.. Daniel Reid had never had sex with random people he had no intentions of dating, or being serious with.. In fact, the whole reason he was so upset at the moment, was because the boyfriend whom had dumped him for lack of “ seriousness and maturity “ - was now..seeing yet another person..
Perhaps he wasn’t over him. But it had been so many years between then and now, not that he could truly remember them.. It made him feel insane.. It drug up old feelings that he had been trying to shove down.. but for Danny- it was like it was only yesterday.. Mostly because he’d lost several years of his life, to a little thing that doctors liked to call.. self preservation.. It wasn’t the first time- and Daniel was quite afraid, it wouldn’t be the last..
He sat tucked back in the corner of his bed, chewing on his thumbnail as he mouthed words to himself.. A fake conversation he was having with a hypothetical Beau..
He was meant to be waiting for Riley to arrive.. meant to be getting ready- but the deeper he fell into his own mind, the more his eyes glazed over.. Why. Why did Beau have to do that? Why did he have to dump him? Why did he have to ..have to project his feelings on him? He was mature. He was really fucking mature- in fact, had Beau asked him, he would have told him he wanted to marry him on the spot.. Why had he just left him? Did he not love him ?? Was there something he did?
He had so..so many unanswered questions- and the only thing that seemed liek a plausible answer.. was sex.. Rough.. unbelievably angry.. sex.. And Riley was capable of that.. The topic of Riley- drew him back to reality, for what it was for him- at that moment, and Daniel shoved to his feet, padding around the dorm room, gathering a few things and setting it up so that when Riley came about, he’d be ready.. And afterwards, he settled back in bed, returning back to chewing his thumbnail in the corner of his bed, tucked beneath his blankets..