My one and only.
I never knew how things would be when we first started dating. All I thought about was the excitement. All I thought about was you. You were everything to me, literally everything. My first everything.
Now that the winter is here, I remember the memories like it was yesterday. I remember that we did start talking around winter, that we did take it slow because of me, you waited for me, why?
I remember in November when it was already cold, you were already wearing my letterman, and we were just outside your house with all of my friends, they were playing football and were just talking. I remember that night you were talking to your friend Sophia, you were telling her that you were scared to hold my hand, and all she told you was just to do it already. When you did, ahhhh, I felt the blood pumping and I started liking you even more.
Later on that month, we were all having breakfast with the usual group, and everyone knew what was gonna happen that day except me. There was this other girl that you knew loved me & you wanted to beat her, so what did you do? You asked me out to the ball 4 months in advance. You pulled me into the supply room after school, and you asked me.
I still remember what you wore when I asked you out four years ago, it was the Texas longhorns shirt with you guitar hero pajama pants kik. I still remember that moment. It was already after school, and you were already home. My brother and I were driving home in the van (aka the pimpmobile) and I told them I couldn’t stop thinking about you. Long story short, we ended up at your house and they drove off.
Giiiirl, my heart was pounding and I could feel it. ‘Will you be my girlfriend’ is all that I remember coming out of my mouth from that conversation, & there it is, a new beginning, a journey, and a new story to tell.
I never kissed a girl before, and out of nowhere here you are leaning in and kissing my lips, I didn’t even expect it. That was one of the greatest feelings I had, my first kiss with you.
I could feel that I was falling for you, but I couldn’t quite say I was in love with you just yet. I remember I didn’t think that this was relationship wasn’t going to work out because we were so sarcastic around each other. But I was wrong, that’s one of my favorite things I love about us.
Things were going great, but idk why. I told you I didn’t love you anymore, I told you I didn’t feel it at all anymore. Being influenced and push by my friends was a great factor, but it was also me. I tried moving on to a different girl, but things weren’t just the same. I couldn’t stop thinking about you.
We weren’t talking for 3 months, and being here now I can feel the pain I put you through. I know all the feelings and thoughts you had during that time, and deep down, I promise I’ll never hurt you again. I’ll never break your heart again, because I’m feeling that now.
I started to talk to you again, and you did too. I didn’t know how things were gonna go, but they were rolling, going but slow.
Then again I made another mistake, not only just a mistake a problem, a huge one. I started talking to this girl at work, and you told me to stop. I didn’t, and it just made our relationship plummet. You stayed, and it showed me how truly you loved me and were committed.
3 years go by and now we’re here. Let’s see… how do I say this.
When I look at you, all I see is the love of my life and my future. I can’t go on a minute with you going through my head. I can’t stop thinking about you at all. You’re the first thing I think of in the morning and the last before I go to bed.
I messed up so many times and if I could I would take it back in a heartbeat and change what I’ve done. But I can’t, because that’s life. These things happen for a reason, and its another lesson learned.
I promise that I’ll always be here for you no matter what. I promise that I’ll always stay true to that. I’ll love you like no other. I want you to remember what we have & that we can save it.
I feel like you’re confused and you don’t know what you want. I can’t force you or push you back into this relationship, I’ve tried it, but I’ll stop. I can’t make you come back. If don’t want to come back, that’s the way it’s gonna be. It’ll hurt, but I don’t want you to be in a relationship that you don’t want to be in. It’ll tear me apart, but I gotta deal with that.
But baby, if you stay, I promise things will change and be different for the good. I promise I won’t keep things in my head, I’ll let you know what I’m thinking when you ask. I’ll start standing up for myself, and most importantly, US. I’ll tell you that I love you and that you’re so beautiful everyday. I’ll tell you that you mean so much to me and that I don’t want you to leave. I don’t want you to leave because I need you. You are what keeps me going, what keeps me going to do better. You are my motivation to do better in life. I’ll take care of you until you tell me to stop.
You’ll always be my high school sweetheart, my pookie, my baby, my mommy, my one and only, my everything.
All I want you to know is that I’ll always love you and will always be here for you.