There’s that pain that everyone has felt before.
The pain of betrayal.
You can feel your heart shrink.
You can feel as through something is gripping your heart as hard as all their strength can grab.
It’s when you feel as though you have no one to talk to and your world seems so small.
When you feel so unloved.
Everything you know seems to be stripped and taken away from you.
All you want to do is hug yourself and cry but you’re too embarrassed to do so.
You want to scream and cry and rip apart every particle of your being.
Feeling as though you don’t belong.
Chills going up your spine.
Goosebumps all over your body.
No more words to speak.

Our Love Story ~Panda and Taylor~

The Details

  • Taylor lives in Massachusetts
  • I live in Colorado
  • We are 2000+ miles away from each other
  • We both stream on twitch tv

The Story

Recently I’ve gotten into playing League of Legends. I found a site called and I wanted to check out some streams to learn how to play the game better. I found a stream that was LKchocopie’s. His stream was so amazing. Everyone was so polite and awesome. That really inspired me to look for more streams that were similar. I thought looking at streams with asians would be a similar experience. I stumbled upon Taylor’s stream and I swear, he was the cutest guy I have ever seen! LET’S BE HONEST, I NEVER EXPECTED TO FALL FOR HIM EVEN THOUGH HE WAS CUTE! He was duo streaming with this other girl and I thought she was his girlfriend so I didn’t even think about liking him. I thought that I would just be a follower to his stream like I was to chocopie’s stream. The same day Taylor asked if I wanted to play a couple of games with him and cucumber (female who duo’d with Taylor) and of course I said yes. WHO WOULDN’T WANT TO LEARN FROM A DIAMOND PLAYER? We played a couple of games but cucumber was so bm(bad mannered)! I was wondering to myself, “Why does he deal with her bs? She is so mean!” Turns out she was just another streamer but he enjoyed her company! Eventually he would say, “Panda I like you. You’re cute.” I thought that meant that I was a nice person and he liked that about me so I didn’t think much about it. One day he promised he would spend the day with me then ended up ditching me to chill with cucumber and I got angry! I told him that he promised to spend the day with me. I wasn’t jealous but he broke that promise so I got so angry. That’s when I realized, “Fuck. I like this guy?” It was just so unexpected to like him because we had such a good relationship as friends. The next day we had a serious talk about how we felt about each other and it was so relieving. We both liked each other and after that we’ve spent everyday skyping with each other! When he asked me to go steady with him I laughed. I WAS SO HAPPY! And here we are. Planning to spend our future together and stream as a happy couple! All donations that we get through our twitch tv streams will be used for us to finally being able to see and be together. 

Thank you so much for reading this. I really appreciate it. You are wonderful and you will also be able to find love whether its near or far!