I had no idea what a thigh gap was. In all honesty, I never did.

So I went and looked it up.

Girls. If you look like the girl to the right, you are beautiful.

Girls. If you look like the girl to the left, you are beautiful.

No girl should be discriminated against because of their legs.

If you are having issues with your eating disorder, call this number.

Eating Disorder Hotline: 1-800-931-2237

April 18th, 2013

I felt a bit more happier today at school than I had been for the past couple weeks.

(Want to know why?) because I was empty and on dextroamphetamine/amphetamine

When I’m using Adderall, it makes me focus an it makes me feel a little more joyous. It also makes me not hungry, it stops my cravings.
I’ve only consumed 335 calories today, that was before I took Adderall. But it’s okay. I wasn’t hungry after that.
It’s stupid, I know, but I feel happier when I’m starving and empty.

I’m going to let my cuts heal. There are so many. It hurts so bad. But the good kind of hurt. I guess it tells my I am alive. Whatever. I’ll be okay. I know it. I’m just going to stop eating right now. No dinner. Nothing. I’ll feel better soon.