I felt a bit more happier today at school than I had been for the past couple weeks.
(Want to know why?) because I was empty and on dextroamphetamine/amphetamine
When I’m using Adderall, it makes me focus an it makes me feel a little more joyous. It also makes me not hungry, it stops my cravings.
I’ve only consumed 335 calories today, that was before I took Adderall. But it’s okay. I wasn’t hungry after that.
It’s stupid, I know, but I feel happier when I’m starving and empty.
I’m going to let my cuts heal. There are so many. It hurts so bad. But the good kind of hurt. I guess it tells my I am alive. Whatever. I’ll be okay. I know it. I’m just going to stop eating right now. No dinner. Nothing. I’ll feel better soon.