So a thing happened today.
My other partner, texted me saying he figured out what bothered him about the poly thing and my relationship with Nerdking. He said it was because he knew I love Nerdking. And i was like ahahaha naw it’s way to early and blahblahblah excuses. And he was like don’t even, I know you and you haven’t told him cause you’re afraid of his reaction. which was completely true.
But when Nerdking came back in from having a smoke, I was sitting on the couch all flustered, and he asked what was up and I was like, So here’s the thing, I’ve known about this for about two weeks and haven’t said anything cause i didn’t know what your reaction would be, I’m pretty damn like hundred percent sure I love you. And I totally didn’t expect and I love you back, but all he did was rub my arm affectionately. And I didn’t know how to take that, but a close friend said to just let things be normal between me and Nerdking, and just let him say it if or when he is ready to. But I’m really happy that he knows now, so it doesn’t feel like I’m hiding anything from him.