I’m sorry it seems that way, but hopefully I can clear some of it up for you by explaining.
i’ll start off saying, just because I don’t care for it, doesn’t mean I won’t put it in a story I’m writing. I don’t care for eyeviolence but i had Spook cut out his eye. I don’t care for animal abuse/violence, but Spook canonly mistreats animals.
I was about not making ships “canon” as in: way back when I had Entre, I saw proof of other pairings going badly when shown they were dating/married/friendswithbenefits/whathaveyou. Then eventually I decided that why should I limit my stories just because there’s backlash? I agreed to have 12 and Entre canonly dating before I left Entre’s blog. I let Swag and Entre’s relationship in the Zomb AU get a little closer. I’ve allowed Andrew and Clyde be dating and such behind the scenes in Uncomf AU.
I know before I’ve said that Spook was more sexual than romantic, but that was months ago and Spook likes to do his own thing, so eventually I came to the realization that maybe it’s the other way around. And maybe he’s more romantic than I thought, but he’s been more of an internal romantic. It makes sense now with the way he goes about lyricwriting and if you follow his reblog-blog.
He was just confused on whether he was or not. And as always: just because I know something about a character I run, doesn’t mean they do. Like I know that Andrew is homosexual, as a teen, he was struggling with if that was how he was or if it was just a phase or just his way of thinking at the time. I know Spook is graysexual at best, but Spook doesn’t, so he still gives being more sexually active a test here and there (admittedly not as much as I would like to since it’s always received badly and I’d rather sacrifice that than give people a reason to hold animosity towards Spook for a reason I didn’t intend.)
I’ve had Spook coming to the conclusion for a while (shown in his journal blog and a bit, subtly, on his main one) that he might want to date someone. He said at one point that it wouldn’t be Rocky or One, but we often say things we don’t mean and Spook’s no different. He says a lot of stuff he doesn’t mean, he believes and enforces things that he’s a hypocrite on. That’s something human that I emphasize him keeping. His crush on One has been building for a while (since the beginning, I called it a “senpai crush” but it’s grown since then), it shouldn’t really be a surprise. So no matter what, if you walk up to someone who you’re wearing rose-tinted glasses for so you already see them in a better light than they are, and they ask you if you want to go out, wouldn’t you be in favor?
And even then, it wasn’t completely my decision anyways. I had Spook confess his feelings, because Spook felt One needed to be made aware of them, he honestly didn’t expect any sort of…I don’t want to say reciprocation, but the guise of mutual reciprocation I suppose, in return? Like I’m not gonna say he didn’t fantasize about it, but he knew it was his fantasy and it wasn’t realistic, but then it happened? And it wasn’t all on me/Spook. It was also on One, One made that decision to go to that length and given what Spook’s grown to, he wouldn’t have turned him down outright. (besides the fact that he knows One just got rejected and that on top of actually wanting to date One, puts him in this position. the only thing holding him back from saying YES outright is that he’s currently mad at him)
(I’ve done lots of romantic stuff with Rocky and Spook too, I don’t understand why I’m only getting this ask now.
Like, yeah, I insisted Spook and Rocky were platonic at one time, because they were, at the time. Then Things happened and welly well well it’s a mess. Furthermore, you can’t hold Spook to any one thing when it comes to how he feels about something, especially another person. He is my #1 character for getting out the message that feelings for a person are fluid. As fluid as sexuality and gender. And they’re confusing. Especially the love for a person and how you love them vs how you think you love them vs how society defines your love for them.)