Hotaru, #13: What kind of parent they would be
I just ran to get dinner, and I was thinking about this the entire time. It’s difficult, because there’s so much unknown about Hotaru. The greatest look at her personality that we get is in S, but I’m a strong believer in environment contributing to development. Not nature versus nurture, but how nurture impacts nature. S-era Hotaru, for all intents and purposes, no longer exists. We don’t have a twelve or thirteen-year old sickly child, feared and hated by her peers, abused by her caretaker (Kaolinite), manipulated by the demon-possessed shell of her father, and groomed to be the herald to an inter-dimensional eldritch horror.
Now, she’s a nine or ten year old (TODAY, MAYBE) with three devoted parents, a sense of belonging, and the avatar of death and rebirth sitting in the back of her head saying “You go, girl.”
THEY’RE KIND OF DIFFERENT THINGS IS WHAT I’M SAYING
But we’ve seen criminally little of Hotaru in Stars, and I barely know who she is. It’s like trying to build a family home with only a $10 Home Depot gift card. I just don’t have enough materials to build who I think Hotaru is now. But “I dunno” makes for a pretty piss poor Ask, so let me push a bit further, if more scant on details than I’d like.
I do think that Hotaru remembers who she used to be, in the sense that I think she has memory of those experiences as having been hers. Her friendship with Chibi-Usa is real and based on how their relationship grew. She remembers the isolation and loneliness that she carried with her. These experiences aren’t necessarily front and center in her life anymore, particularly if she has newer and better memories to overwrite them, but they can and do poke through at times.
She’ll realize that is particularly true if she has a child of her own. (I won’t say “when” as I don’t know if I see Hotaru having kids at any point.) Hotaru has a keen protective streak in her, and she’s especially sensitive to the idea of her child being left out of things. Gods help EVERYONE if her kid might be bullied, like Hotaru will turn this Cycle around immediately, do not push her. She has a tendency, as well, to be a little smothering, a by-product of her childhood the first time around, and having three loving and doting parents the second. She’s not really a good gauge of where the line is for kids, and I see the teenage years where her child begins to pull away a bit as especially difficult for her.
But ultimately Hotaru would be an incredibly supportive parent. She believes, more than anything else, in the power of choice. Whatever her kid wanted to do – WHATEVER – Hotaru would believe in them and always be the first to cheer them on.