I laid in my bed, starring up at my ceiling that was magiced to reflect the starry night outside, silently reliving everything that happened the night of the burning.
Finding Amalia’s body in Static.
Leo setting fire to the room.
The fire catching and spreading faster than any of us could anticipate.
Mysterious Nanobites (ones that Fyn suspects were injected to Amalia’s body set to be released when we tried to destroy her body) preventing any attempt at putting out the fire.
Saving my Oleanders.
I exhale. It had all happened so quickly. We lost so much.
Someone had found us out. Someone was sending us a message.
A strong one. Amalia had been like a younger sister to Leo and I. We had taken her under our wing and taught her every thing we know.
We were grooming her. Making sure she would reach her true potential.
Someone knew that. And they wanted to hurt us.
Hurt the society.
I roll onto my side, waving my hand and changing the ceiling again, back to it’s original white state.
What were we going to do?
Sure, Fyn had saved a great part of our history with his nanos but what was a history worth when our future was so very hazy.
All of our obvious Augs had been taken and locked away by my uncle Freyr. My Sagas displaced and scattered about the grounds, impossible to reach to even try to meet in private.
Leo had locked herself away.
Refusing to answer my messages let alone see me.
She had lost an arm, I couldn’t blame her but-
For some reason I felt like there was more to her hiding than that.
Leo and I never had secrets growing up but now…
Now I felt like that’s all she had.
I stand and start to pace.
I feel so smothered and claustrophobic here.
I need out.
I want to go back home so badly.
But there is no home, not anymore.
I want Leo
but I’m not even sure I have her anymore.
Suddenly I realize a shrieking noise is filling the room
a heart beat later I realize it’s coming from me.
I look down and see that I’m floating in the middle of the room, arms out and I’m screaming.
And it feels good.
I’ve lost everything I’ve worked so hard for.
I’ve lost everything.
I close my eyes and let the screams flow from my body.
Tears streaming down my face.
My screams slowly turning into sobs as someone bangs on my door.
My magic forcing them locked closed.
Suddenly I drop to the ground with a thud and I cry, curled up in a ball on the floor. I sob into my own arms.
With the tears comes release and my doors finally allow whoever was banging to rush in to my side.
Of course it is. I reach up and cling to him, pouring out every ounce of emotion I have left inside of me into his chest. My radia burning red between us.
He’s murmuring something against my ear but I don’t understand it. I vaguely take notice of him rubbing my back and kissing my head, all in an effort to calm me but it doesn’t work. Nothing will.
I cry and scream until there is nothing left and I truly feel empty inside.
My radia dimming until it fades almost completely.
I lay limply against Fyn, listening to his breathing, until finally he picks me up and walks me over to my bed.
"I want to go home." I whisper softly as he turns out the lights, leaving only a string of fairy lights on above us.
"I know." He whispers just as softly. He climbs into my bed and holds me close. He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a small patch. "This will make you sleep my love. Would you like it for awhile?"
I look up at him and nod.
I’m not sure what he saw when he looked down at me but his expression changed to something I didn’t recognize. Something sad and pitiful.
He slowly peeled the back off of the patch and pressed it onto my hip under my bottoms.
Sooner than I expected my eyes began to grow tired and I couldn’t keep them open for a second longer. Sleep over came me.
And I slept a dreamless sleep.