I started counting my calories about 2 months ago when my doctor told me it was either diet or die.

I have been pretty religious about it, putting in every item I eat and measuring meats and dressings and condiments like a chemist.

I thought by doing this, I was essentially saving my life and keeping my heart beating within my chest for just a little while longer and now I think its more than that.

I think I am a little obsessed with it. I don’t get happy when I think about eating I get stressed and I start second guessing myself and removing things from my plate or even worse, once I find out the caloric content of food, I guilt myself into only eating half of what is on my plate.

I know I have to be careful and mindful about what I eat. I know sodium is a very dangerous element for me and I need to be aware of the levels in everything I ingest. I just think all this counting and measuring and worrying has taken the joy out of something so simple as just having a meal with my family and I think maybe I am done keeping tabs on myself and will just be mindful of what I am putting into my body without being militant about it.

After a long proses of struggling with my weight im finally starting to feel comfortable and confident with my body. The first picture(left) was taken in February of 2014 when I weighed 164 lbs, that was the heaviest I have ever been. I was extremely unhappy with the weight I had gained in a matter of 4 months after beginning university- in my case the freshman 15 was no myth. So from then on I decided it was time to lose weight and GET HEALTHY! I began go to the gym 4 times a week and cutting out a lot of junk food (not all because im weak…very weak and I love food). Today’s July 14, 2014 and I currently weigh 147 lbs (right picture), losing a total of 17 pounds along with gaining some muscle :P Im not yet complete satisfied just yet with my body but just looking at the difference makes me proud of what ive accomplished. An app that I discovered called MyFitnessPal has helped me so much with managing my diet  making it much easier to make smart food choices. I hope by the end of the summer to lose about 10 more pounds but for me its more about how it look on my body then the number.

Sorry for the poor quality of the pictures and bad lighting XD

Not sure if anyone will even take the time to read my little paragraph but i just felt like sharing, have a nice day my lovely followers :) 

40 Pounds Down

I’ve officially lost 40 pounds since I’ve started this Tumblr. I started at 324 pounds and I’m now down to 284 pounds. You might think this is sad, but this is the best shape I’ve been in my adult life. I PROMISE I will be posting photos soon!

However, the majority of the weight loss has come after I started cycling. I weighed 317 pounds when I started cycling, so I suppose that’s a loss of 33 pounds. 

Contrary to what many say, it hasn’t actually been that difficult. I eat foods that are good, but also good for me. It is, however, pretty difficult not to eat bad things, although once or twice I have. I don’t think of it as a big deal when I do. I just think of it as deserving it for working hard.

I ride around ten miles every day, except for days when it isn’t possible. I’ve missed 4 days in July. I missed the 3rd and 4th of July for celebration and I missed a couple of other days because of rain. 

To me, this is easy. It’s just a true change in lifestyle. It is making easier decisions about food and finding a workout that works. I’ve seen progress in nearly everything about cycling: the length of time I can cycle, my speed, and my distance.

I’m on MapMyRide and MyFitnessPal, so if you’d like to add me on either, just send me a message and I’ll share my info!

Definitely killed it today.  Had my run this morning then took Beanie for a short walk in the evening.  Well I should said took myself for a walk.  Beanie abandoned me half way through and ran back to the house!  Total miles today was 3.6.  So 6.1 towards the 63 this month. 

Afterwards I went to the store and got all the ingredients for that vegan stir-fry recipe I posted awhile back.  I’m not even vegan, but it looks delicious.  Going to make it tomorrow for lunch and hopefully it turns out!

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Weight loss.

I have always had trouble with my weight. I was 90 pounds when I was only 8, and luckily thinned out naturally during puberty. When I was 16, I weighed 130 pounds, and dropped to 120 after dating a really mean boyfriend. When I was 20, I was at 140 pounds. After a really tough breakup (my fiance left me because I didn’t want babies until I was done with all my schooling), I dropped 10 pounds. A few months after that, I went from 130 to 120 because I starved myself for a week, because I am really melodramatic and wanted an ex boyfriend to see that he was causing me to waste away. 

However, at 120 pounds, I felt great, unstoppable, sexy. It was my dream weight, even though many of my friends commented on how my boobs looked smaller (still a DD), and that I looked too skinny. Well, in medical school, I gained it all back and am currently 150, which is the heaviest I’ve ever been. 

I finally fought my laziness and dropped all of my excuses. I’ve been using myfitnesspal.com to track all of my calories and I got a fitbit to track my steps. I’ve been eating a primarily raw diet, but I still allow myself 1250 calories a day and eat back my calories after working out. I’ve lost about 1.8 pounds in two weeks, which HELL YEAH, I’m proud about. 

I understand that it’s a slow and steady process. I know that not only will I get back to a healthier weight, but I will end up being stronger, more healthy, actually have endurance. If I were attacked, I could defend myself (to an extent). 

I’ve been through my ups and downs, my bad habits, and I see some friends that concern me. One is a dancer and was 115 pounds and 5’7” yet she pushed to lose more. Another is a friend from high school who was in the 160s, she’s lost 26 pounds in not even a month. She complains about money on the daily, and I know that she is losing weight through starvation. 

I try to counsel her through innocent comments, “Unfortunately, white scars are permanent. There might be ways to minimize them, but they are essentially there. Stretch marks usually occur from rapid weight gain/loss, unfortunately. I also hope you aren’t just starving yourself to lose weight (yes, that includes 1 meal a day). Other than that, congratulations sexy lady!!” But I don’t think I’ll get through to her, even though I’ve been in her position, as well. 

I suppose to sum it up, even though I am not the poster child of health, it just concerns me when I see my own friends doing damage to their body without realizing it. I wish there were something I could do or say, although unfortunately, that won’t be the case. Therefore, I must just sit back and watch. I suppose I’ll continue to throw in my knowledge here or there, even though I know it will be disregarded. 

Here’s to being healthy, not skinny. I, out of anyone, should know that there is such thing as a skinny fat! Haha. 

Healthy Decisions & Starbucks Challenge Update

My Starbucks Challenge 

Starbucks Challenge: Day 6
Days Completed/Remaining: 6/24

Woohoo! Tomorrow will be a week since my last Starbucks, so I get to put money towards a new outfit if I can go one more day without my drink. I thought I couldn’t do this challenge because I love drinking coffee, but has been so easy because I have a prize waiting for me. I have tunnel vision whenever I do contests because I know those contests help with motivation to continue, and that motivation to continue with healthy living will show results. I just have to start planning on what to buy for my wardrobe now. I have been wanting to invest in a red leather jacket… I’m open for donations if anyone would like to donate. :) haha

Healthy Decisions

My mom went to the store and bought Drumbstick ice cream cones that are 270 calories. According to MyFitnessPal, I’m about 500 calories under my calorie goal. I could have it and get closer to my goal, but eating it just to reach a number is not smart. I decided to have greek yogurt to satisfy my sweet tooth instead. I believe eating in moderation is important, but my dinner was not entirely healthy. I couldn’t justify eating a 270 calorie ice cream cone even though I have 500 calories left for the day. 


I have learned that I am WAY more motivated to input all my food/drink choices when I have exercised…when I get minimal to no legit exercise in a day, I tend to “forget” that MFP exists.

Doing this to force myself to get my shit back together. Last time I did the whole live a healthier lifestyle & use MFP, I lost 10-15 lbs…then again Devin was deployed, so I was able to rid the house of almost all carbs (I’m Italian - telling me no pasta is like dying a slow & painful death), substitute ground turkey for almost all meals requiring ground beef (‘cept meatballs…see above tangent), and walked every day with Bella (now we have the baby, so that puts a minor kink in things).

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