Right now, I’m pretty close to my heaviest weight ever.
Right now, my lower back hurts all the time, to the point where it’s hard to sleep sometimes.
Right now, I’m not very flexible. My hips are super tight and I can barely cross my legs. This is a combination of my weight and my super tight hips.
Right now, I’m not comfortable in my own skin.
Right now I don’t even really think about cute clothes. I’m more concerned about hiding my rolls.
Right now I probably have diabetes. I haven’t been to the dr in a couple years. I have an appointment on Tuesday to look at a weird lump on my ankle and an appointment for a physical at the end of June.
I’m pretty much back at my starting point. I feel overwhelmed with the total amount of weight I need to lose. To be healthy, I need to lose like 120 lbs. I need to lose a person. I can’t think about that number though, it’s too big. I’m thinking about 10% of that…26 lbs. They say if you lose just 10% of your body weight you do amazing things for your health.
I’m writing this down to remember what it’s like to be this way. I’m going to keep on moving forward. Taking steps every day that will bring me closer to my goals.
I am taking action though, I know that my physical body pain is due to weak muscles and too much time sitting down. I need to move my body, to stretch, to move.
I’ve been doing that…not consistently but I’ve done more this month than last month. I have the watch now and that’s helping me to stay motivated. I’ve been trying to figure out how long it will take to oil up my joints and work out my knots. I’m wondering when I’ll have built up/loosened up my muscles enough so that I’m not in pain all the time.
How much weight do I need to lose for my knees to hurt less?
How much yoga do I need to do? How much walking?
It’s almost summer….if I work at this every day. Fuel my body with lots of clean food, stay away from the sugar…move my body every day.
I can’t think about that…to far away. I need to focus on what I can do right now. I will be mindful of where I am in the present. Continue to work on loving myself for who I am now while taking steps every day to get me to a healthy weight.