Crises can be a habit.
Sometimes other people aren’t worth your words. Talking is good for a lot but if there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that all talking has consequences, and it’s better to consider those consequences before opening your mouth.
On the other hand, I get the feeling I’ve been letting the consequences stop me from saying important things, a bit too often. I haven’t struck the necessary balance. And I can feel the consequences of that, too.
No action in life is exactly right. And although I say that with authority, you’ve got to realise that I’m completely lost on this point. Not that I don’t believe I’ll get there–I work hard and Yin Yang exists everywhere–but for the moment all I know is that as much as I still talk too much, I also stay silent too much. Plus I delete like 70% of my original posts which is just another indicator but not a very important one.
Hi. I need to start learning to accept that there will always be some people who disbelieve me to my detriment, or who think I’m stupid, and that I can never be universally understood. Experience will always shape the understanding of words, and I’m just one person, so I’ll never appeal to everyone. Still. For tonight, I’m going to chill the heck out, watch anime, and try to forget the people who might not think the best of me.
I am still a good person. My needs still matter. My limits do not needs to be compared to a world record in order to be valid. I am still a good person and I try so hard to be better. I’m going to let everything go, for the night at least.