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Things I have learned today:

  1. Colin is going to be in a new show called Humans, which is a remake of what is supposed to be an awesome near-future Swedish scifi show with androids and cyborgs.
  2. Barring any major changes to characters and/or plot, his character, Leo, is a half-human/half-hubot (aka half-android, aka CYBORG) leader of “a group of free hubots reprogrammed to be capable of emotion, desires and free will”.
  3. I am going to die.
  4. Hubots, by the way, are known for “bright flawless skin, glossy hair and unnaturally bright (usually very blue or very green) eyes”.
  5. He will have a tattoo and a charging port.
  6. AHAHAHAHAHA. Kill me now.
  7. AND HE WILL BE UNDERCOVER IN A BROTHEL.
  8. What even is life anymore?
  9. They’re supposed to begin filming soon, with a premier set for about a year from now.
  10. It is being co-produced by AMC and Channel 4, which means it should receive all the proper funding/publicity that quality programming deserves and will be broadcast in both the US and UK.
  11. Did I mention AMC, because that means Colin is going to be on a major American network which is known for producing some of the best, most amazingly well-done shows on television, full stop???
  12. But it’ll still have British writers/cast!! IT’S LIKE THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS COMBINED.
  13. I give myself a survival rate of making it to next year of about 50/50.
  14. I have quite possibly gone insane.
  15. HAAAAAH. There’s nothing possible about it, I have definitely lost my sanity, someone please come hold me, this is not a drill.
  16. My desire for all the zombie/cyborg AU mashups is strong, WHERE ARE MY FICS, I WANT THEM ALREADY. I DON’T CARE THAT BOTH COLIN AND BRADLEY’S NEW SHOWS AREN’T ON AIR YET.

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the more i think about it the more neil gaimain’s justification for why the doctor had to be a male because he had to be colder, harder, scarier, and in short that that was something inherently male

the more it pisses me off

we live in an age of alice goddamn morgan like

?????

in what world - esp this one where women are constantly demonized and shoved down and made into nightmares for being scary or unappealing or refusing to accede to social mores - can a woman not be terrifying?

think about taking all the doctor’s refusal to play by the rules, to be normal or present as normal or even sane, his problems with boundaries and his burning desires and rages and flippant strangeness and vagueness and playfulness that occasionally hones into terrifying sharpness and knowledge 

and put that in a woman’s body

and think how much more scary that would be to an audience trained to see women like that as unhinged and villainous and more often than not unable to be contained by the text they are in

and how subversive it would be to put all that in the name of a character we love so deeply and know and root for; how we wouldn’t be able to just dismiss all that prickling uneasiness and all that complexity as just plain villainy or ditziness or any of the countless other reasons we find to detest female characters who don’t fit inside the box or are obstinately Not Perfect and occasionally idiotic and wildly emotional just because she’s a woman 

because she would also - in addition to all of that - be our doctor

I love that Colin is a mystery.

That his sense of humor is so Irish, tragic, morbid, and difficult to understand until you really get to know him, and that he fangirls over Tim Burton.

I love that he comes across as innocent and naive but played in a play naked on stage right out of college and can get in the head-space of some really serious characters, even from as young as 19.

I love that he keeps his private life private and doesn’t let his popularity disturb his passion.

I love that he has that passion for what he does and the characters he chooses to play.

I love that I can’t decide if I want to feed him and tuck him into bed or climb on top of him and pin him to a bed.

I really just love Colin.

My Percy Jackson story began when I was in the 4th grade. My school district had this thing where if you read enough books over the summer, Barnes and Noble would give you a free book, but they didn’t have many choices. I looked at all of the books, and the Lightning Thief sounded the most interesting, so I thought “Why not?” So I read the first one and I loved it. I loved it so much that he very next time we went to the bookstore, I bought all the rest of them. I didn’t just buy the next book in the series, no, I bought the entire series. The Last Olympian had just come out so I bought what was then the entire series, at least. And then I read all of them. I cried, I laughed, I was so deeply in love with the characters. I AM so deeply in love with the characters. I have read the original series 11 times, all five books. That’s 55 books, plus Heroes of Olympus twice, which makes it 63. Ever since fifth grade, Percy Jackson has been my life. I can recite the chapter names in order, that’s how well I know these books. When the Heroes of Olympus started, I have been at a bookstore to buy each book the very day it comes out, and I will for this last one too. I have a poster on my wall that I got from Barnes and Noble of The Son Of Neptune. It had been in their display window and I wanted it. I wanted it so very badly, so I asked them if I could have it when they were done displaying it, and they said yes. It’s so gigantic it takes up half the wall and I love it, and the way Percy is always with me at home. I love him, there’s no two ways about it. There is not a single character in PJO or HOO that I don’t love so ridiculously much. I classify my favorite characters as Annabeth and Nico, but honestly I could spend hours talking about minor characters who hardly said two words, because I love them. I love all of them. They are my family, my friends, the ones who’ve been there for me since I was 8. I am, and always will be a demigod daughter of Athena, and I will always love Camp Halfblood as my home. And to the kids from both camps, I will stand with you against Gaea. Let’s do this, guys!

Okay, but sometimes I get really irritated after going to the bookstore, because YA literature makes me feel so damn transparent. I want a book with queer representation that isn’t just a realistic fiction romance novel—- I want stories about people like me who get to save the world, who get legendary prophecies and curses and destinies and just happen to be queer while doing it- I don’t need a book whose only plot is “Whelp, I’m queer. Whatever shall I do?” I want a book with a hero or heroine or villain who is queer and proud, without it being a big deal. I don’t want the protagonist to be a hero despite being queer- I want a protagonist who is a hero WHILE being queer. And while some books like this exist, they are few and far between. Examples include Proxy (Alex London), Guardian (Alex London), Huntress (Melinda Lo), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), etc.

I am begging YA authors- we’re not Mr. Cellophane. We exist and we deserve to be represented as heroes.

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oops now you’ve seen my face (i hope your screen didnt crack)

i had a good day ʕ•͡ω•ʔ went shopping with my friend, bought a lot of clothes, but most importantly… RED LIPSTICK AND A HAT :D :D

ew braces