mindfiles

“Gender, like the body, is a boundary concept.” writes, Anne Balasmo, author of Technologies of the Gendered Body: Reading Cyborg Women.

“Construction of a boundary between nature and culture serves several ideological purposes. Most notably, it provides a rhetorical framework for the establishment of a hierarchy of culture over nature. This socially constructed hierarchy functions to reassure a technologically over-stimulated imagination that culture/man will prevail in his encounters with nature. The role of the gendered body in this boundary setting is significant: it serves as the site where anxieties about ‘the proper order of things’ erupt and are eventually managed ideologically. Investigating the interaction between material bodies and new technologies is produced by a complex arrangement or articulation of texts, narratives, institutional structures, economic forces, bodily practices and other material effects.”

- A.E. Zimmer, “Mindfiles and Body-phobia” ‪‎ The Coven Mag, Issue 3

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It’s only you and me on the rooftop, drinking alcohol and juice, with the stars twinkling in the night sky. We had no other intentions but to catch up with each other’s lives and have fun but as the night goes deeper, as we drank further, the alcohol wiped away our inhibitions. We held hands and hugged. I felt your body against mine; our body heat against the cold wind. That night, we were more than friends but less than lovers.

New Terasem Religion Places Its Faith In Technology

New Terasem Religion Places Its Faith In Technology

Gabriel Rothblatt, a pastor at Terasem, photographed at the Terasem ashram in Melbourne Beach, Florida April 7, 2014 (Bob Croslin for TIME)

A new religion has set out to store memories for centuries and deliver its believers into a world where our souls can outlive our selves

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anonymous asked:

how's your heart? :)

a very, very familiar question.:))

tbh, it’s not quite doing well. My heart misses a lot of people all at the same time; conversations and memories keep flashing back; wishing and wanting for time to stop and go back to how things used to be. There are things I’m not yet ready to talk about so I just keep it all inside. And every night, as I lie in bed, I hear it breaking a little more each day.. 

Thou shalt not judge a book by its movie.

A WALK TO REMEMBER.

Last summer, I have read the book ‘A Walk to Remember’ by Nicholas Sparks. I finished reading it in less than two days (I think, haha). And I find it weird but I did cry while reading the part where Landon found out that Jamie has a terminal disease and also THE walk to remember. I might not remember the story in great detail but from my point of view, the book was way much better than the movie.

I have seen the movie a week ago and the plot is different; same concept but different execution of idea. I was a bit disappointed because it was not what I read; and that was the first time I ever read a book that has a movie version already.

IN THE BOOK:

  • A lot was said about Jamie’s father
  • Landon’s pranks were never harmful
  • They somewhat regularly visit an orphanage
  • They never kissed until they got married (I think)
  • It was a Christmas play and Jamie played as an angel
  • Jamie gave Landon her mother’s bible and they read it together
  • Family conflicts arose upon knowing that Landon proposed to Jamie
  • Jamie could no longer walk normally as she made her way through the aisle

IN THE MOVIE:

  • Jamie’s father doesn’t play a very important role
  • Landon’s pranks were a bit dangerous
  • They did a tutorial on kids
  • They always kiss
  • It was a Spring musical, Jamie as a singer
  • Jamie gave Landon her mother’s quote book
  • Nothing was said about their plan of marriage
  • Jamie was walking perfectly fine.

I just got really disappointed because a lot were changed, simply because they think the novel is old-fashioned and will not draw teenagers in the contemporary times. And it’s not just about the changes, maybe it is but the movie did not gave justice to its name. A WALK TO REMEMBER. How could one remember a girl walking down the aisle looking as if perfectly healthy? They should have kept the ending.Jamie’s slow and painful walk down the aisle is what made it A WALK TO REMEMBER.

Dear Bosconian,

You’re very much asleep right now but at the same time, you’re very much awake and running on my mind. I can’t make out why you don’t bother saying good night already and ending our late night calls when you badly need to get some descent sleep, but I’m not complaining.

I will never complain not getting enough sleep because we were both still up and talking at three in the morning. I will never complain being on the phone with you for hours and feeling like we haven’t really talked about anything at all. I will never complain on having/letting you consume a huge portion of my daily thoughts. I will settle for whatever time you have for me.

I will turn my night to day for you. I will lasso the sun back up and hide the moon among the trees. I will pick the stars and put them in a jar, so you can look at how they shine for you at any time of the day. If I can only make Time stop and disconfigure the time zones, I will, if it means having you 24/7 for 365 days.

I love you in such a way that not even time could measure. I love you in such a way that neither the darkness of the night nor the brightness of the day could explain. I love you in such a way that the combined height of the oceans and the depth of the mountains are baffled. I’m hanging from another cliff but I think I’ve fallen for you too soon, too many times already.

Back to my old self...

Ewan ko lang pero nitong mga nakaraang araw, napapansin ko na ang mga post ko ay laging patungkol sa pag-ibig. Nadedeppress na naman ako sa tuwing maaalala ko na mag-isa lang ako. Yung kahit inspirasyon man lang ay walang-wala ako. Ewan ko ba.

Ako ‘tong sinasandalan nila sa mga problema nila sa ‘love life' kahit ako mismo ay wala nito. (wala nga ba? joke. haha). Nagsasalita ako na akala mo ay alam na alam ko yung mga pinagdadaanan nila. Isang hamak na trying hard lang ako at ang totoo ay nakikiramdam lang ako. Wala talaga akong alam sa larangan ng pag-ibig.

*Siguro iba talaga yung feeling na may mga moments kang namimiss. Lalo na yung pagkagising ko may nabati na sakin ng ‘Good morning, Leanne… :))’ pati na din sa gabi bago ako matulog. Tapos kapag bubuksan ko yung inbox ko, siya lang ang laman nito. Mahirap lang siguro talagang makawala sa mga bagay na nakasanayan mo na. Kaya kapag nawala, hahanap-hanapin mo.

Love and Happy Endings-- Celebrity

I thought real life happily ever afters were impossible when Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens broke up after 5 long, happy years. But now, I got a new couple I got my eye on. It’s the couple from The Bachelorette Season 6, Ali Fedotowsky and Roberto Martinez. Even though Ali and Roberto met on a tv show,their love for each other is far greater than just an act for publicity or something. It is the real deal. 

And speaking of Ali, she competed in The Bachelor Season 14 way before her ‘Bachelorette’ days but eventually withdrawn herself in one of Jake Pavelka’s rose ceremonies because of a work-related problem. It was just so cool finding love again with the same story but with a different twist and hopefully a happy ending

Rainbow

I.
I’m not expecting you to care
But why do I feel like loving you isn’t fair
'coz one plus zero is not equal two
Don’t you think you should love me too

Slowly I’m losing you
Please don’t be gone too soon
But if you’re happy
Then I’ll just make sure that

Chorus 1:
You’ll be missing me one day
For the hugs we shared and the games we played
We’re like the rain, pouring down so slow
It turns out you didn’t wait for our own rainbow

II.
Why don’t just tell me what you feel
Let’s talk this up to close the deal
You call this love?
You call this real?
Turn my head down,
God do your will.

Slowly I’m losing you
Is it me? Who’ll be gone too soon?
It’ll take time to be happy
But I’m sure that

Chorus 2:
I’ll be missing you one day
for the laughs we shared
Memories we’ve made
We’re like the rain pouring down so slow
It turns out I’ll be alone
Waiting for our own rainbow

Bridge:
It’s so sad to think that fate
Will make you fall in love
With the person who’s not meant for you

So now I’m letting you…
Now, I’m letting you go….

La la la la la la

Coda:
I’ll be missing “US” someday
for the love we shared that we should have saved
We’re like the rain pouring down so slow
you’ll always be my own rainbow

Get to know yourself better

Answered this. I think it’s accurate. LOL. I’m getting to know myself better. :))

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

One night. It was not enough.

*excuse the face.

Graduation Ball. April 09, 2012.

I told a friend that after this Ball, I would disappear into oblivion and make the least possible forms of communication with everything related to high school. That is until I found out how hard it is to let go of the memories. I wanted to be the first  one to let go so that it wouldn’t hurt me anymore if they forget the special moments we’ve shared.

Today, a few hours after the Ball, I got a growing number of guy friends telling me how they regretted not dancing with me. Damn. I don’t know how to feel about this. If they really wanted to, they should have made the effort of finding me in the crowd last night. I really did not know what to think whenever I am left at our table. I am wondering what happened or was I even that important or whatsoever. 

But guess what. Above all the frustration, he was my last dance. It was a perfect, last dance. <3

ACET (Ateneo de Manila University) = not accepted
USTET (University of Santo Tomas) = AB Communication Arts, AB Literature
UPCAT (University of the Philippines- Diliman) = BA Comparative Literature

Ooohhmaayyy. THANK YOU LORD! :D Whooo :D

To lie or not to lie

This by far is the most adrenaline-rushing, guilt-tugging, mind-boggling, conscience-disturbing thing I have ever committed. 

I am a fourth year high school graduating student. I cram and engage on too much co-curricular activities for the sake of awards. I study my ass out to get passing/ high grades on quizzes and exams and try as hard to be included in the over all honors, Top 10. I’ve been working so hard and too hard this year that I won’t forgive myself so easily if I lose everything I’ve worked hard for. I’m not going to lose this fight. I won’t allow it. I’m going in the battle field, with or without armor.

"You’re not the same anymore. You changed."

"What do you mean I changed?"

"You don’t tell stories, laugh at my jokes, and cue in punch lines like you used to."

"Yeah, listen, I need to go. I have something to finish. I’m sorry. Good night"

I changed. He’s right. I don’t find him funny anymore. I’m not as thrilled whenever I get phone calls from him, in fact, I find it bothersome. I’m not as comfortable sparing my time to talk with him about nonsensical things like I used to.

He’s right. I changed. I finally opened my eyes that he will never go as far as dating me. I’m the friend he turns to when another girl ditches him. I’m the girl he looks for to tell stories of how he scored another chick that night. I’m the girl he would never get tired joking about our future and marriage but will not mean a single word.

Lonely nights forced me to change. He forced me to changed.

Prom sa Lent Season?

"Seniors, didiretsuhin ko na kayo, wala nang prom… but it will be moved to April 9 and  call it Graduation Ball."

Big deal samin ang prom kasi walang JS Prom sa school namin, Seniors’ Night lang. At dahil March 17 ang binigay na schedule ng office for prom, ayaw pirmahan ni Sister President ng school ang request na magprom sa March 17. Bakit? Kasi nasa Catholic school kami at Lent Season. Panahon ng pag-alaala sa mga sakripisyong ginawa ng ating Panginoon para sa atin at hindi panahon para magsaya at magparty.

Masakit kasi umasa kami.One week na lang ang paghihintay tapos naging one month pa. Sino ba naman ang hindi madidisappoint sa balitang yun? Tinanggal nila ang letrang G sa salitang PAG-ASA. 

Ako, tanggap ko naman yun. Intindi ko yung rason ni Sister President. Ang hindi ko lang maatim ay yung mga kaklase ko na sa sobrang pagkadismaya ay ultimo pagpapalit ng relihiyon ay sumasagi sa isip nila o kaya naman ay pag-iisang tabi ng pagiging katoliko. Sobra na. Oo normal lang ang magreklamo at magtangkang ibagsak ang National Acheivement Test bukas pero to set aside religion for a one time prom, that’s way too much.

Kaya nga niresched diba? Okay kasi parang Batch Farewell na din yun. Tsaka same program and dress codes, walang nabago, date lang.