Rating: Heartbreak Girl (sad)
My heart dropped into my shoes as I took a deep breath.
The pregnancy test shook in my trembling hand.
I used the other to grip the edge of the bathroom counter to help keep me on my feet.
I stared at the little positive sign, hoping for the vertical bar to disappear
This can’t be happening.
Was the only line being repeated in my head.
I’m on the pill, been on it for a year already, and all of a sudden this?
This has to be a mistake, I can’t be pregnant.
I needed a professional test, and fast.
I called my ob gyn and scheduled and appointment for the next day.
I put the phone down and sat on the toilet, holding the little wand and staring at the small screen once more.
My head shot up and a waive of anxiety swept over my body when I heard the front door open.
Should I tell him ?
No, absolutely not.
Not until I’m 100% sure about this.
No need to stress both of us out,
I sighed and collected myself before throwing the test away and heading out to face him.
He called out my name as he made his way to the living room.
"Right here" I forced a smile as I walked down the stairs.
"There you are" he smiled as he kissed my cheek.
"Everything alright babe?" he asked with a concerned look as he wrapped his arm around my waist.
It’s just that I may or may not be pregnant. Surprise!
"Yeah, yeah. Just a little headache" I lied while smiling and kissing his cheek for reassurance.
"How was your day?" I asked, changing the subject.
"Oh great! The guys and I finished another song for the album and we-"
"Are you sure you’re alright?" he shook my arm and taking me out of my thoughts.
"Huh?" I asked sinking back into the conversation.
"Maybe you should take some medicine and get some rest?" he suggested while coming over to me.
"Yeah that sounds good" I said looking at the clock that read 8:52 p.m.
"I’ll be up in awhile" he smiled and awaited a kiss.
"Okay" I murmured before kissing him softly.
I made it to the bedroom and looked for the Tylenol bottle.
You’re pregnant, you shouldn’t be taking medicine.
I sighed and headed for the bed, hoping to knock out and wake up from this bad dream.
"Anything planned for the day?" Ash asked putting his dishes in the sink after breakfast.
"Just a doctors appointment" I said getting up
"Doctor appointment? Why? Something wrong?" He asked with an uneasy tone.
"Just a checkup" I lied with a smile, "Now get to the studio before those boys hurt you" I teased.
He laughed and headed towards the door, I followed to lock it on his way out.
"Oh and ask about that headache" he suggested as he opened the door.
"Will do" I smiled before kissing him goodbye.
"Love you" he said before kissing my forehead.
Not for long.
"I love you too" I said before shutting the door and pressing my back to it.
My stomach growled in hunger.
If there’s anything in there you should feed it.
I ate something quickly before heading to my appointment.
"Congratulations! You’re definitely pregnant" she spoke in a chipper tone.
"What?" I asked in disbelief.
"Yes, about 2 months. Did you have any missed periods?" she asked
"Well yes but I used to miss them a lot due to stress. I just thought it was that mixed with the pills" I explained.
"Birth control ? We don’t have any contraceptives prescribed to you?"
"I went to Planned Parenthood" I said thinking about the irony, "I’ve been taking them everyday-"
'They're highly effective but not always 100%. There's always the possibility”
"You’re aware of the other options right?"
"Well if you weren’t planning on this and don’t want the baby, there are-"
"Don’t you dare say I don’t want this baby. Maybe I wasn’t planning on this happening right now, but don’t try to talk me out of this."
"I’m sorry I just thought since you were on the pill that you weren’t thinking about keeping it"
"Of course I am"
"Have you told the father yet?" she asked.
"No. I haven’t"
"I think that’d be your next step before anything else" she suggested.
"You’re right. Uhm thank you" I said getting up and walking towards the door.
"I want to see you in 2 weeks!" She called as I walked out.
I practically ran out to my car and settled in the drivers seat.
I let my head fall to rest on the steering wheel and let out a deep sigh.
My phone startled me when it started to ring,
Ashton’s name flashed across the screen,
Hi baby, I just got out of the doctor and guess what I’m pregnant!
I turned off my phone and threw it in the passenger seat.
I just needed to think about everything before I went to him.
But I couldn’t go home because he’d be there,
so I drove.
I drove for hours, stopping to get gas twice.
Until finally I drove home.
The dashboard said 9 p.m. as I climbed out and headed towards the door.
I walked inside and saw Ashton sitting on the couch with his head in his hands.
His head snapped as soon as I closed the door.
"You don’t know how to answer your phone or what?" he snapped getting out of his seat.
"Uhh sorry it was off" I replied.
"I’ve been calling and texting you for hours"
"Why? What’s wrong?" I asked suddenly getting worried.
"What’s wrong? What’s wrong? What’s this?" He asked holding up the pregnancy stick.
"Why do you have that?" I asked.
"I don’t know maybe I called my girlfriend to ask how her appointment went. And when you didn’t answer the first 3 calls I came home and found this! Why wouldn’t you tell me?!" He yelled, anger apparent in his voice.
"I went to the doctor to confirm it Ashton!" I said.
"And?" he questioned
"And it’s true. I am", I gulped,
"I am pregnant" I said for the first time aloud.
He sucked in a breath and let out a sigh.
"Say something please" I said shakily after moments of silence.
"Say someth- What do you want me to say?" He asked finally speaking.
"Well what you’re thinking would be nice"
"I don’t know what to think"
"Well maybe about what we’re gonna do-"
"What we’re gonna do? We’re not doing anything"
"We’re not having a child! I’m not ready, you’re not ready! I just turned 20! You’re 19! We aren’t ready"
"We have 7 months to get ready Ashton"
"No we don’t because we’re not having it." He said walking away.
"And who are you to decide that?!" I yelled getting angry.
"That is half of me in there! I have some say in the decision"
"Well I’m keeping it" I said sternly.
"No you’re no-"
"Ashton I’m keeping our child" I spoke again.
"Well then you’re doing it without me because I don’t want a kid right now"
"Oh so it’s the baby or you? Is that it?" i said as my voice began to shake again.
"So it’s ‘half of you’ but you don’t want anything to do with it?" I asked.
"No. I don’t" he answered straight forward.
My heart shattered and it took everything in me to do what I had to.
I grabbed my purse and walked away.
But before I was out of sight I turned around.
"I knew you’d be scared but not like this."
"You said you never wanted to be like your father. But look where we are"
were my last words before I walked away from him.
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