There are three facts, three stories I inherited from my family that keep me up at night: one, my father met my mother in a whorehouse along the tourist belt. Two, my aunt, also a prostitute, brought us to America by marrying her US sailor client. Three, my father lies. He recounts these stories to me, over and over, and they change each time.

I don’t know if they’re rumors or if they’re true. Somewhere among them, there’s the reason why my mother left. There’s the truth of how they met, fell in love, and had us, my sister and me. It’s a story he won’t say. A story he won’t admit. A story I’ve run away from. Growing up, I didn’t have time to think about why my mother wasn’t there. I had to take care of my father. My até. My lola. But in that midst of taking care of everyone, I left.

It’s a long story. I paid my way through college. My father pulled out credit cards in my name, with my social security number, and I was in a mountain of debt before twenty-one. So I eloped. With my high school sweetheart who enlisted into the Navy. An encircling of my aunt’s story—I couldn’t help it. On some days, on bad ones, I think of myself as a poor whore who married for money. A whore who left her family. It’s what started my insomnia, the dreams. They’ve returned from my childhood.

Mercy by Melissa R. Sipin - Guernica / A Magazine of Art & Politics

Feature image by Eileen QuinlanSmoke and mirrors (red), 2005. Chromogenic print.



Penelope // Aiysha Hart
Cassandra // Phoebe Tonkin
Helen // Rihanna
Circe // Leila Bekhti
Andromeda // Charo Ronquillo
Ariadne // Joan Smalls
Medea // Sofia Boutella
Antigone // Natalie Dormer
Pandora // Kara Hayward
Electra // Caitlin Stasey
Ismene // Sarah Bolger
Atalanta // Samira Wiley
Calypso // Karlie Kloss
Clytemnestra // Catherine Zeta Jones
Daphne // Jodie Comer
Euridice // Diana Penty
Jocasta // Jennifer Morrison
Penthesilia // Oona Chaplin

Settled in Grace

When your heart is set in His compassion, you’re able to look in the mirror and see His glory in you. You’re able to see yourself as beautiful because what He’s done for you is real. If He’s only done it for you and not for others then Jesus wouldn’t be Jesus and grace wouldn’t be grace. Knowing that He gave Himself for everyone is where we find our identity and value. And unless we’re willing to become mercy, we’ll always see what we don’t like rather than what He’s made right.

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anonymous said:

I'm confused with the whole head canon that the Martell's are of Indian or Middle Eastern descent. They're all described as olive skinned, and olive skinned can mean so many races. Why are people so headstrong on this subject? A curvy Bulgarian olive skinned woman matches Arianne's description just as a Spanish woman or Saudi Arabian woman could. Can't people have their opinions without receiving such blacklash as long as the fancast is ethnic? (I'm asking other people too to get an opinion)

continued: by the way, I don’t mean any offense I’m just new to the community of online game of thrones fandom and kinda confused and intimidated.

The ASOIAF fandom (especially on Tumblr) can be a scary place, but you’re not offending anyone — simply trying to understand is a huge step in the right direction. I’ll try to help!

I think that the discussion stems from quite a few places; namely …

  1. The lack of racial representation in the ASOIAF books. We’ve got the Dothraki, some Dornish, and some Free City people, but for the most part, the “Western” section of the world, Westeros — the “rich” and “civilized” portion — is almost entirely white. That’s why, in many peoples’ opinions (and certainly mine), the characters whose race is not specified should almost always be cast as PoC. That’s not saying that they one hundred percent of the time have to be, but it would be pretty swell if they were.
  2. "The salty Dornishmen were lithe and dark, with smooth olive skin and long black hair streaming in the wind.” Doran is dark. Pretty self explanatory. Just to continue, “The sandy Dornishmen were even darker, their faces burned brown by the hot Dornish sun.”
  3. GRRM has stated that Janina Gavankar looks like Nymeria Sand. Janina Gavankar is Indian (well, three quarters).
  4. Geographically, Dorne is most similar to Egypt and other North African countries. Now, though we can’t know for certain, in order to talk about race at all, we have to assume that in GRRM’s world, genetics and biology work the same way as they do in ours. In this environment, Dornishmen (well, Rhoynar-Dornishmen) would have evolved as PoC, just like how they have in Northern Africa.
  5. The Martells are the only high-profile PoC (or even PoC passing, if you interpreted “olive skinned” as still white). The rest are servants, slaves, slavers (arguably worse), “uncivilized” (e.g. Dothraki), sailors, etc.

Ethnic diversity isn’t the same as racial diversity, and the problem here is with the latter. I hope this helps. If anyone else has something to say, feel free to keep the discussion going!