Guys, I’m back :’) I’ve been going through a rough time these past couple of weeks, what with being abroad and having trouble with my anxiety, some unfortunate incidents, a meltdown and an anxiety attack or three, but I just wanted to let you all to know that sometimes there are people who seem like they always have it together, or always appear to be happy and think nothing is wrong…well, that’s not always the case. I thought I went through the worst and end of my depression a year and a half ago, and it made an appearance two weeks ago.
I just wanted to let you all know that I’m doing a lot better, and am getting back to being the real me. It may take some time, but nothing really is more important than your health, and that includes your mental health. I have missed out on some great opportunities while I’ve been abroad, and I regret all of them because I let myself get trapped in my own darkness. Again, I’m going to have to miss out on a couple more adventures, but I’m willing to do that, even if it means taking a little time to focus on being myself, and making myself happy. You’re all wonderful and I just wanted to say thank you so much for all of your wonderful emails. Remember, we’re not broken, just bent. And even if we’re bent, there’s always a way to put the pieces back together.
Just remember, every day is a fresh start, so don’t worry about the little things and appreciate every moment you have with the ones you care about. Don’t always try to please others who don’t give you a second thought. Just focus on keeping one person happy and mentally healthy: you. I thought I knew that, but sometimes we fall off the wagon. And that’s okay. Just remember there’s always going to be someone there to pull you back up after you fall. If there was one thing I could say to each and every one of you, no matter who you are, what kind of day you’re having, what you’re going through in life, and no matter who or what tries to bring you down, always remember: you are loved.