~ I Believe - Christina Perri ~

I believe if I’d knew where I was going, I’d lose my way
I believe that the words that he told you are not your grave
I know that we are not the weight of all our memories
I believe in the things that I am afraid to say

Hold on, hold on

I believe in the lost possibilities you can see
And I believe that the darkness reminds us where light can be
I know that your heart is still beating, beating darling
I believe that you fell so you can land next to me

‘Cause I have been where you are before
And I have felt the pain of losing who you are
And I have died so many times, but I am still alive

I believe that tomorrow is stronger than yesterday
And I believe that your head is the only thing in your way
I wish that you could see your scars turnin to beauty
I believe that today it’s okay to be not okay

Hold on, hold on

'Cause I have been where you are before
And I have felt the pain of losing who you are
And I have died so many times, but I am still alive

This is not the end of me, this is the beginning

This is not the end of me, this is the beginning

This is not the end of me, this is the beginning

anonymous asked:

Hi! I don't wanna sound stupid, but do you know the meaninv between scissors tattoo and, this quite popular tattoos of moths or butterflies under breast? For some reason (the evil?) I can't find "meanings" category on your blog. Love you & your blog! xx

this is the closest I could find about scissors meaning:

and thank you very much dear xx

Thought #18 Meaning, Purpose, Passion

When I do something, I’m always serious about it, like there has to be a purpose or meaning behind it. I won’t just do something for the sake of it or whatever, there has to be a reason why.

Like for example, I’m in medical school because I really want to become a doctor and help people. I know it’s such a cliche but in the real world or at least my world, it’s not a cliche as I hoped it would be. When I ask people why they’re in medical school or why they want to become a doctor, they’d say, “because I don’t want a desk job”, “I’m just trying it out”, “I don’t want to work yet so I’m still studying”, “I don’t really know”, “my college degree is useless”, “because my parents are doctors”, “I’m just copying my elder sibling”. Those were the answers that I got and I’m not really satisfied with that, because I wanted something deeper, like soul wrenching deep. Okay, maybe not that deep but you get my point.

Maybe I’m not just acquainted with the right people. I want to be surrounded with people who are PASSIONATE about what they’re doing. And like together, we’ll change the world, no matter how little. I want to be surrounded with people who will fuel my passion even more and who will make me become a better version of myself. I want to be surrounded with people who are hardworking and strives to have a high grade. (I know a grade is just a grade, like in the real world it won’t matter, but the VALUE of at least trying to achieve to become the best is what matters to me.) It’s not the grade, it’s the personality, the attitude, the stubborn persistence of someone because they want to be the best doctor so they can help people better.

I don’t really know, because I feel like the atmosphere and the environment I’m in is where people brag about how they didn’t study, or how lazy they are, or how they procrastinated too much. I know, I do that too, but I won’t brag about it. It’s really not something to brag about. Why can’t just people admit that they studied and worked hard. It’s not shameful, it’s something to look upon. And I feel as if medical school for others is college part 2, where you party and drink, and smoke weed. For me, it’s a time to be serious. I know we need to have fun too, but by serious, I mean it’s the time for you to show what you’ve got, because this isn’t a game, you have to learn, you have to memorize, you have to know things, so you can help people. It’s not something you should be lazy about. This is the time to build your personality, to build your persistence, to build yourself to become stronger, to manage your weak points, to know yourself in tough times because there will be A LOT of those.

Maybe it’s my INFJ talking, maybe I should stop demanding people to have a better reason why. I’m not saying I have the best reason why. All I want is some enthusiasm, some passion, like I want to see the sparks in their eyes that they glow with so much energy even in the most stressful days. That’s what I want to see. Emotions and attitudes of others are highly infectious, so you’ve got to be careful who you spend your time with. Don’t lose your passion just because the people around you aren’t as enthusiastic as you are.

(I’m sorry if this was long, it’s just something that bothers me quite a lot during my first year because I thought I’d be surrounded with like minded individuals who are fueled with passion and purpose. I might have sounded judgmental but that’s just how I feel, I’m not saying I’m 100% right. Maybe I’m just being too serious, but then again I won’t lower my standards, because that’s just who I am.)

<I am mine. Before I am ever anyone else’s> sometimes we let ourselves go, to the point in which we forget who we really are and what we really came to this world for. I did not get this because of someone… Although a few months back I did break up with someone I was dating for almost 2 years… But I mainly got this because it’s hard to live in this world as yourself and at the same time being fully accepted. All my life I’ve been made fun of on how I dress, on how I talk, on how I handle things, on my intelligence, on my culture, on my languages, on my height and sometimes we forget who we really are because we try so hard to step into society’s standard in order to be accepted. But honestly fuck being accepted, fuck being society’s standard, and fuck giving your happiness away because others don’t fail to see how good you look when you’re happy. In this world I’ve learned that you have to be somewhat selfish and go for what makes YOU and only you as a person happy and also surround yourself with that. We tend to please everyone cause we love to see everyone smile and but forget that the most important person that needs have a smile is yourself before you give others a smile. We sometimes fail to realize that we can’t make someone happy if we are not happy with ourselves first. It also kind of relates to… “The same ones that chose you are the same ones that own you!” (Lyrics from @ToriKelly) I love this because it’s true. It’s like life brings you love and but you loose yourself within the love it gives you. you fight so hard to keep that love whole and forget to love yourself first to just please another. It’s crazy how much someone else can have the power to control your actions to the point you don’t see yourself in you anymore. And it doesn’t have to be specifically someone you’re in a relationship with, it could be your boss, it could be your family, it could be your “so called friends” and who knows it could even also be your fears. And so yeah this plays a big part of my life in which I’m still learning to love myself before loving others it is why I got this & I guess this will be my long lasting reminder….