Make me hurt
Give me pain
sometimes I need to cry,
sometimes I need to scream,
sometimes I need to hurt,
just so I can feel something.
Take me away.
Take away my thoughts and feelings and decisions.
Take away everything but the pain.
Reduce me to dust.
A handful of screams, and intolerable pain, and pain.
I want nothing but pain in my mind.
I want it pounding, throbbing, slamming into my head
I want you to shove it into my head.
I need you to pummel it into me.
I need you to choke me.
Rid me of my breath and control my air.
Remind me who is in charge.
Pleas. Choke. Me.
I am a masochist.
Pain helps me
It helps me clear my thoughts,
and reset my body.
the blood rush and
the air rushing into my lungs and
capillaries is a beautiful thing.
It has more effects than you can imagine.
I need pain.
I want pain.
I have to have pain.
Give. Me. Pain.