Curves & Shadows - A Lesson In Self-Love

The past month since surgery I’ve been feeling very nostalgic for my old physicality. I’ve been giving myself grief each time I look down and my scars are still visible, that they are not completely healed and faded like the appendectomy scar near them.

And I realized that my self-love or lack thereof was leading to this point, which made a light go off in my head, and I realized how much I was lacking what I truly needed to be healthy and heal.

Life is hard sometimes, we give ourselves too little credit for the things we endure and overcome, and we bare our battle wounds and scars like titans, even if hardly anyone appreciates or sees it. We know it’s there, wrapped under the scar tissue, under the emotional baggage that comes out when we feel vulnerable.

That’s what it was like for me to take these images and post them for the world to see. Vulnerability. But it also put me at ease. It was a self-guided lesson to loving the curves and shadows of myself, of being content with my the way I look and the way it makes me feel. To accept it and realize it’s okay and I will heal.

We will all heal.

1. hiding

2. no place to go

3. yielding

4. feeling small

5. shield

6. picking up

7. gaining composure

8. wonder

9. conquer

10. just breathe

11. release

Photographer: Lynnsey Dunson

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Picture Diary: Late March - Early April

I’m going to be chronicling my life more often, since the move I have unpacked my Minolta camera that I used to take with me everywhere and I can’t wait to show everyone my film adventures once again!

Spring is in full effect in Colorado. The weather is unpredictable with winds and tornado warnings a few miles up the road from home.

And then some days are so beautiful at 81 degrees of pure sunshine that I am sitting outside taking in the warmth, skeptical it could be happening already.

(a view of our backyard overlooking the cherry blossoms and lake)

As some of you know, the last two weeks have been some major adjustments in my personal and professional life. I’ve taken the leap to doing photography full-time and it feels so wonderful to be doing what I love. We also moved into a new condo and are loving every second of making it our first home together.

Some of you close to me also know that right before crossing those bridges, I became very ill and ended up having to have emergency surgery to remove my gallbladder. It was quite torturous and I am glad to have come out of everything alright and the support I received from my family was … well, I couldn’t have done anything without them, especially my husband.

For five days my life was filled with pain killers, a lot of movies, struggling to climb even a small set of stairs and keeping to myself. I had a lot of time to think about life and the meaning of everything. -smirk-

And now? I’m back to work slowly recovering to my pre-gallbladder lynnseyself, interviewing for freelance jobs, working and editing pictures, getting ready for senior portraits (if you are interested in being a senior representative, please contact me asap!) and my first magazine editorial in mid-may. Life feels really lovely right now despite the drawback, and I can’t wait for the spring shoots that are coming up soon!

Photographer: Lynnsey Dunson

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Photo Diary - Terrarium Fairy Garden

If you should know anything about me and my personal life besides my love for my family, one thing I adore most in this world is plants. I have this green thumb I inherited from my mother and I have a special heart string dedicated to greenery alone.

I went on a small morning adventure the other day and found this amazing greenhouse box for super cheap but they were using pots inside of it as a decoration. I knew immediately how perfect it would be as a terrarium.

So Remi and I went to Nick’s here in Aurora and hunted down some live moss and a tiny fairy tree to plant in hopes of making it a fairy garden.

When we were at the garden center, they had examples of plants you could walk on, that could be used on stone pathways and walls. They had two different types of moss planted near eachother, one dark and one light green and they were merging together to create this gorgeous green collage of beauty. So we got two colors.

This is our fairy tree. Literally, the tag said “fairy tree.” And it’s in the honeysuckle family.

Stones for the pathway.

One of the gardeners at Nick’s told me that to plant moss in a shallow space (like a terrarium) you cut half their roots off and you cut them into pieces of four. Moss grows so quickly that within a few weeks they’ll be connected together to cover the space between each piece.

And the result! Once the moss grows together and covers the bottom of the terrarium, I will put in dollsize pieces of furniture to finish the fairy garden. I had a little extra moss so I created a separate plant for decoration as well.

Photographer: Lynnsey Dunson

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Picture Diary: Bugs and Pets

Last night there was a huge thunder and rain storm here in Aurora, which left the grounds around our condo smelling like fresh grass and flowers. All over the ground were dozens of earthworms, on the sidewalk and in the parking lot. My son Ayden and I decided to save them from their inevitable sun or car fate and took pictures before putting them in the lawn.

By the way, worms are kind of gross, haha but we saved about two dozen so I figure we did our good deed of the day.

Since moving into our new condo, (and since losing our three pets in the last 9 months) we are slowly starting to build our “pet” collection. The most exciting aspect of pet ownership without breaking a ‘no pet rule’ in your rented home is “unique” pets. For the past three months I have waited patiently before getting them but we finally put in our order for caterpillars and over the last two weeks we have watched them eat and grow enormously. Yesterday these three out of five have survived and cocooned themselves to prepare for their transformation into painted lady butterflies. It’s been amazing to watch step by step and they’ll bloom into butterflies within the next week or two.

We’ve also adopted an adorable betta fish with a live plant for the boys and named him Succo after the two family deaths in the past two months. He’s lively and eats too much, but he’s beautiful and I can’t wait to get my own.

Life has been magical in our home, with decorations and our little knick-knacks filling the shelves and figuring out where to hang our pictures. Building a home together is such a pleasant and new feeling for all of us, and we feel so blessed to be in such a beautiful and safe place, with a healthy family.

I have three shoots coming up in the next three weeks, more posts soon as right now I’m taking a mini-break before my editorials and just focusing on preparation and getting ideas together. Stay tuned!

Photographer: Lynnsey Dunson

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