There are certain songs that bring special memories to me.
This is definitely a powerful one. It brings vivid memories.
I remember, I had listened to this album when I first fell in love. My first love. It was a hopeless love, a sad–unmoving love. I could not act on behalf of my heart, there was a ‘danger’. It was a forbidden love. In an already sad place in my life, this brought me into a heartbroken depression.
My thoughts were filled with the possibilities of being together. I’d fantasize heavily. Wishing intensely that these fantasies could be carried out.
I’d fantasize simple things, how bright smiles would look. How a caress would feel. How a warm voice would sound at sundown and what that warm voice’s breath would feel like against my skin.
And at every glance, I would notice your wheat-colored hair, golden in the setting sun’s light. The way you seemed so sure of how you spoke and what you spoke of–but once attention shifted from you, a sadness shadowed. I just wanted to hold you when I saw that sadness.