May doesn’t really idolize Steven, per say??? Like… it’s difficult to explain. She sees him as someone to look up to and admires his skills but at the same time, no part of her feels like he’s someone she needs to actively work to impress— she’s comfortable around him, casual even. If anything, he’s like the older brother in college or smthn that sometimes brings brings cool things when he visits (only its steven so its not rly cool shit its just fcking rocks) and she’s relaxed enough with his presence that she feels fine joking around and teasing him and stuff.
Basically she sees him as a huge nerd but like. a cool nerd.