late night blogging

just chill

it’s one of those “stay in bed go on tumblr and listen to music” kind of mix (っ◕‿◕)っ

songs:

  • pressure the 1975
  • sweater weather the neighbourhood
  • i see fire ed sheeran
  • wdywfm the neighbourhood
  • so far (it’s alright)
  • human daughter
  • wait m83
  • stars the xx
  • why’d you only call me when you’re high? arctic monkeys
  • florescent adolescent (acoustic) arctic monkeys
  • the xx try
  • i think ur a contra vampire weekend
  • this is the life two door cinema club
  • you can blame it on anybody phoenix
  • something good can work two door cinema club 
  • this is gospel (piano) panic! at the disco
listen here.

I’ve always felt very lonely
I know I have family and friends that love me. It’s not that I lack a support system. I know very well that I have people who love me. I’m not alone, I’m just lonely.
I’ve always been lonely in the romantic sense. I’ve always wanted to experience the kind of happiness that comes with a good relationship and I’ve always had a fear of being alone and never being loved because I never have been loved or had my love returned.
I’m not alone but I am lonely.

Its the middle of the night & im angry… im angry at you.
The angrier I get the more I feel like I hate you.
Im alone & dont know what to do…
I think “oh what the hell, might as well.” So I look through my phone.
And you know what I see…

Someone that I made memories with.
Someone who made me laugh, who made me happy.
Someone who held me while I slept, who held me when I cried.
Someone who I opened up to, who I trusted.
I didnt see the person that made me angry, I just saw the one that I fell in love with.
The one that was suppose to protect me from getting hurt, not the one that did hurt me.

But I guess this is what happens,
You cant let go…
No matter how bad they hurt you.
You know what I see…

Someone I love.

My tabletop friends managed to survive through an entire IN campaign with me in charge! The adventure wrapped up tonight. :) We made it there and back again, all mostly in one piece. I’ve been sitting on this picture of all the Sups for months and decided I would share it with the gang in celebration of the occasion. I needed somewhere to upload it, so tumblr can have it, too.

Handy cheat sheet here because to each their own, your mileage may vary, Boss interpretation not final, see store for details.  

I JUST WANT A WORLD WHERE EVERYONE IS EQUAL AND NONE IS SUFFERING ;WHY IS THIS SO HARD AND UNREALISTIC BUT LIVING IN OUR CURRENT DISGUSTING REALITY IS FINE ??LIKE LOOK AROUND THE WHOLE WORLD IS BURNING ;PEOPLE ARE SUFFERING ; EVERYTHING IS FALLING APART ???