They don’t hold hands much. They used to, back when they’d first gotten together. It’d been simple and easy and they hadn’t felt they had much to hide and they’d walk around with their fingers clasped together and swing their hands back and forth and Dan’s thumb would trace up and down Phil’s knuckles and it felt nice, felt close. But people don’t really just hold hands at random all that often. Normally there’s a reason - we’re walking around together; I want to show that you’re mine; your hand is cold and I want to warm it up - and when you’re in a private relationship, you can’t really succumb to those sorts of desires. Phil can’t find Dan’s hand while they’re walking on the pavement and slip their fingers together, his thin and chilled ones contrasting perfectly against Dan’s thick and warm ones. Day and night, Yin and Yang, or something like that. He can’t, it’s not allowed. They’re not allowed.
But sometimes they do.
In the lift. Sometimes Dan holds Phil’s hand in the lift because he can and he wants to touch him and he wants to stroke his fingers down his knuckles. Sometimes it’s at the BBC, when they’re walking through the corridors, and Dan just reaches out and snatches Phil’s hand up in his own and they swing their arms back and forth where no one can see them, and where it wouldn’t even matter if anybody did. Sometimes it’s on the couch, when Dan is spooning Phil from behind because I don’t care if you think you’re wearing the trousers in this relationship you’re still just a little spoon in trousers deal with it, and he just reaches out and finds Phil’s hand and laces their fingers together from behind and keeps them like that because he can and because the back of Phil’s hand feels cool against his palm.
They hold hands in places and situations that many wouldn’t bother to, because they can’t do it all that often and such a simple thing as intertwined fingers is such a privilege to the both of them, so rare. Holding hands is something they never want to live without, and it’s still special to Dan, to Phil, even after all these years.