Most days I am content with being alone but sometimes when I watched a movie or read a book that has a love story in it, or when I see lovers holding hands or kissing. I realize that even though I am content with being alone, I don’t want to be lonely. I think what I’m tryin’ to say is that.. It would be nice to experience this thing called “LOVE”.  But I guess I’m still holding on to something that I know will probably never happen.  It hurts so much to see you with her. You are everything I want and everything I will never have.  I lay in bed every night thinking about you. What it would be like to be yours.  I mostly dream about the possibility of you one day feeling the same way. 

Hi. I just want you to know that.. I miss you. THE OLD YOU. The one I used to talk to. The new one sucks. If I’m given a chance to use a time machine, I’ll go back and I’ll capture all the happy and beautiful moments that we had. I miss you. SO MUCH..