Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
….. If I knew it was gonna ask this question, I would not have done this Blog everyday thing LOL
Uhh… First of all, my first love was not too long ago haha.. She was girl from high school and it was my only girlfriend during high school. We went out a few months over a year. I don’t know what to really say about my first love, but I’ll try my best haha. So like, I have this long list of “traits” that a girl has to have for me to date her and this girl, was probably the only girl that I have ever met to meet almost all the traits. She was pretty, smart, tall, cute and her personality, to me, was impeccable compared to other girls. Also, she was pretty popular towards the guys which made me happy cause it made other guys jealous of me hahaha. I wouldn’t say that she was perfect but she was pretty much close to it. We had a pretty good relationship as we were together through high school but after I went to college, it went downhill. I would get mad or annoyed at little things and seeing her every three months was abhor. So during the last months of my college freshman life, we broke up. It was a pretty abrasive break up because honestly, I screwed up pretty bad the last few months of our relationship and after the breakup, I fucked up even more. I would just argue and fight over it even after we broke up. I don’t know, it just felt like it was the right thing to do at that time LOL
I miss her still but because of how I reacted after our breakup, we don’t talk anymore. Before, I would try to force a conversation but now, I think it’s time to just let it go? Mmmmmm my mom told me this awhile ago. “You’ll never forget your first love. No matter how hard you try, you won’t be able to.” I think it’s true though, I still can’t seem to get over her. When I accomplish something or have something amazing happen to me, the first person that pops up into my mind is her. Whenever I see her talk to someone else or even if I see her, my heart starts beating like it’s a Pacquiao boxing match. The last time I saw her was cause I had to carry my sister’s luggage to Girls State. I told my mom that I didn’t want to go cause it was too early and I just made up bullshit but… Korean moms just don’t give up when it comes to things like this. I went and saw her and I just got really nervous and stuff. I would act like I was texting someone and stand away from her and idk, it was stupid lol. Truthfully, every second I spent with her was worth it. She changed me to the person I am today and I’m happy with it. I mean, of course I’d like her back, but I can’t force things to happen x) I can say that during my teenage life, “it was the best of times and the worst of times.”
First Kiss. It was with my first love also LOL It was during Solo-ensemble. We were both volunteering and I just followed her around. We sat down on a desk and it just happened. I don’t know if anyone saw or anything, not that I care or anything, but that’s how my first kiss happened. It was probably our first week or second week of dating. It wasn’t anything romantic or astounding but it meant a lot to me. That simple peck, made me as happy as a clam. :3
Okay, so that’s all I’m gonna write. I’m not going any more in depth in this LOL I don’t wanna write a novel LOLOL