Everyone wishes they had a button that they can press to slow down time when they are caught in a wonderful moment that they don’t want to see pass by. When you’re alone in bed at night three in the morning unable to sleep, you can look back at pictures and videos of those moments in your life. You can feel the pang in your chest realizing those moments are gone and all you have are these digital scrapbooks to look back on. That sinking feeling is the realization that nothing can replicate living that actual moment of great joy, with those people you experience them with. The moments you cherish don’t ever last as long as you imagine. When you sit down with yourself, in the silence of the night, the best moments you experience in your life are little sparks in your brain that come back to you. They either reach a point where they bring you comfort and a smile on yourself when you look back, or they still bring you to tears. These moments are a safe haven inside your mind for when you need them. When your reality is too real, you can rely on your past moments of happiness, for better or worse. You just hope that as your time is winding down, you’re lucid enough to never forget those moments that we all strive to be a part of and log into our mental journals. By the end of your days, the goal is that you have hundreds of magnificent times during your lifespan that outweigh the bad you experience. That’s the dream at least.
You, of all people, deserve a happy ending. Despite everything that happened to you, you aren’t bitter. You aren’t cold. You’ve just retreated a little and been shy, and that’s okay. If I were a fairy godmother, I would give you your heart’s desire in an istant. And I would wipe away your tears and tell you not to cry.
—  Sylvain Reynard, Gabriel’s Inferno