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Aesthete (adj.) someone with deep sensitivity to the beauty of art or nature

If you are following me on my instagram account, you probably noticed that I really love posting photos that are related to nature and my travels. I think my obsession over it started when I needed to stay in Manila for college. I started to miss my life in the province, specially that I actually live in a very cold place even though I’m only two hours away from the city. Being away from home made me sick, but I have no choice because I am still studying, and half of my life is in Manila right now. That is why every time I have the chance to be in a place where I am very comfortable at, I always document it. 

“Why are you not blogging about fashion anymore?”. A question that I always get from strangers and even from the people who are very close to me. Honestly, if I were to choose between fashion or photography, I would probably choose the latter. I love fashion, but I love Fine Arts more, while photography has always been one of the things I will never get tired of. I am not the kind of person who will always dress up, or style myself everyday because, fashion blogging is a lot of work. I also barely attend to any fashion events, unless my college friends will invite me. Anyway, I want and I will blog about fashion again, but I want to post something that is worth reading and I am getting ready for it. 

18 years; 18 and still young. Talking to my old friends made me realize that my life has changed and I think still is. Its so weird that I hate spending a day without my friends before and now I prefer to eat alone, maybe because I was with the wrong people and it made me sick. Sick of these so called friends that I became too reserved. Reserved but I learned to trust the right person and being with the wrong people helped me to know the right one. I’m not the oh-I’m-friendly-I-like-you-whoever-you-are anymore. I can filter my photos and tweets why not those people I know, right? Filter in a way that I better stay away and never butt in their lives because, me plus them is unnecessary.

18 things I learned in my 18 years of life:

1. People change. Some will have a hard time to admit, but we all do. We can’t do anything about it because transformation is life. We just need to figure the reason why do we need to change or why we changed. Knowing why helped me to be who I am today.

2. There are only 50% of chance that you’ll stick to what you want to be when you grow old. I want to be a doctor when I was a kid but my life told me that it’s not for me.

3. Sleep is very important! but here I am writing this post at 1 am. Sometimes I ask myself why am I alert every night. It sucks that I sleep late most of the time without any reason ‘cause I used to sleep very early - yeah, way back 2006.

4. Be with the people who bring out the best of you, not the stress in you. If you don’t want to die young, stay away from those immoral acts but be open-minded. Never judge those who do drugs or smoke unless you really know them.

5. I don’t need makeup to look beautiful. There will always be that someone who will see the beauty in you, just show the real you. Smile! because the happiest are the prettiest.

6. It’s okay not to be okay. I learned that it’s okay not to be strong all of the time because there is no such thing as perfect life. Sometimes I talk to myself, I should be thankful that I’m not worrying about my needs and thinking too much about my problems will only make things worst.

7. Some people are just bad. We should stop making excuses for them, or see the good side in them because they will just hurt you. They will lie, cheat or even kill you if they have a chance so better stay away. One thing I know is that being with them is an invitation for trouble.

8. Girls who rant “boys are all the same” are freaking weird, why are they even wasting their lives with boys and rant about how boys are immature and how boys can easily leave them. If they want someone who will love them unconditionally, they should find a Man. A good, responsible man who knows his priority.

9. Don’t ever bully someone. Not everyone is strong, once you bully them there is a big chance that they’ll end up their life because of you being immature. I was bullied before but I used it to be better than them, now I have a chance to bully them back but I won’t because I know what it’s like to be the prey.

10. Language and grammar is important but mistakes are okay; there are always room for progress. I’m not afraid to commit some errors because in a way I can also learn.

11. Being the eldest is a blessing and a curse. Blessing because I’m my grandmother’s favorite and I’m the most trusted one in my family but a curse because they expect me to be responsible, they expect me to be good at everything.

12. Family is important. No matter how messed my family is, I know they will always be there for me. They’re always beside me to support my decisions, they’re here beside me to tell me what’s right and what’s wrong. I will always love them even though we have our ups and downs, and I will do everything just to support them back.

13. Do what you love. Even though I really want to study law because I really want to help poor people, I still chose fashion because I know I’ll be better at it. There will always be a way to help other people, it is better to do something I love because I don’t want this to be the biggest regret in my life.

14. Eat right and exercise. Eating is life and fun but too much is not good and getting older means metabolism is getting slower.

15. Money is important. Money can save someone’s future. I realized that I should not waste my money for unnecessary things unless it’s food. I need to be realistic, money is not easy to earned and I should start saving as early as now.

16. Television is somehow bad. “The TV business is uglier than most things. It is normally perceived as some kind of cruel and shallow money trench through the heart of the journalism industry, a long plastic hallway where thieves and pimps run free and good men die like dogs, for no good reason.” - Generation of Swine

17. Respect is important. Everyone deserves to be respected.

18. “We have to allow ourselves to be loved by the people who really love us, the people who really matter. Too much of the time, we are blinded by our own pursuits of people to love us, people that don’t even matter, while all that time we waste and the people who do love us have to stand on the sidewalk and watch us beg in the streets! It’s time to put an end to this. It’s time for us to let ourselves be loved.” - JoyBell C.

Change (v.) make or become different.

This week has been pretty chill for me. I just realised last night that I only have two months left till my birthday month, since May will end very soon. Once again, time flied too fast for me. Anyway, realising that I will be turning Twenty in two months made me think about my change and growth for the past ten years.

To be honest, I cannot remember a lot of memories but I clearly remember the things that made me who I am today. Most of them are hardships, I swear. Those hardships made me appreciate the good things more than I should, and I am very happy that life is getting better for my family. I thank God for that, but getting older and being mature has a lot of difficulty too.

Change made it hard for me to blog spontaneously unlike before. I became afraid that people might use my words against me and judge me because of my mistakes. I believe that internet is dangerous world too because there are a lot of people that can attack me for petty reasons, and I am really scared for that. But sharing my adventures is one of the things that I enjoy, and I know a lot of people too. I don’t know if sharing these thoughts are too personal, but I know that even though I am changing, there are things in life that I would never want to change. Those things are sharing my adventures and how beautiful this world is. :)

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As for someone who loves buying high stilettos, there’s still a big part in my heart that wants to go comfy or get barefoot every time. I’m always up for parties before but now that I’m getting older, I always try to make time to connect with nature. I always get hype whenever I go to new places, beautiful or not. I try to make the most out of my adventures and share bits and pieces of my experiences on different social sites. As I was scrolling through my photo album, I noticed that I never forgot to take a lot of pictures of my feet even though they’re really manly and ugly. These photos remind me that I am the only one who can stop myself from going to different places. It will be my decision if I want to go up in my bed and explore, or stay in bed and be lazy my whole life.  I am hyped for the time that I will be in a business where I can connect my passion for adventures. Isn’t it so fulfilling? I can do a lot of great things and at the same time explore the world.

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PUZZLE MANSION

Happy July 1st everyone! Before ending the month of June, Jieno and I decided to visit Puzzle Mansion located in Brgy. Asisan, Tagaytay City. We decided to go yesterday and it was the perfect day because there were only few people around plus, the weather was perfect. If you guys didn’t know yet, Puzzle Mansion here in the Philippines is the home of the largest collection of jigsaw puzzles, second is Brazil. If you want to visit Puzzle Mansion, it’s way better to go there by a private car because commuting is much more expensive.

We went there around 12pm and payed P100 for the entrance fee, which is totally worth it. Unfortunately, the owner wasn’t around so Jieno and I toured by ourselves. The owner is Mrs. Gina Gil Lacuna and she’s only a high school graduate (according to the caretaker who gave us bits of information). She started collecting at the age of 27, she’s 61 years old now, and the puzzles she finished came from different countries because she travels a lot. The second floor of the Puzzle Mansion is a souvenir shop consisting of different kind of puzzles from different places as well. 

The largest puzzle that Mrs. Lacuna finished is the Ravensburger Double Retrospect Keith Haring Puzzle with 32,000 puzzle pieces. The Ravensburger Puzzle can be seen on the second floor of the mansion before entering the souvenir shop. I don’t have a nice picture of it but you can all search it on google. It’s approximately 1.92 metres wide, wow!

Before leaving the puzzle mansion, Jieno and I tried finsihing a small puzzle for free, and also located at the second floor! I think we only stayed for an hour or two and spend the whole afternoon in Sky Ranch. Honestly, visiting the Mansion really inspired me to collect and buy more puzzles! can’t wait to have a budget for that, lol. 

It has been months since I updated my photo wall and looking through it made me somehow, nostalgic. 2013 was undeniably a great year! I haven’t updated my Polaroid wall because the highlights of this year haven’t started for me yet. The past six months was okay but the coming months will be better, I can feel it. My photo wall shows a lot of things and aspects about the transitions that my life is currently experiencing. It will show you how I really love and respect the people I consider my family.

The other half of my photo wall, which is under construction, will show you how in love I am with food, fashion and anything related to our government. I remember my first months at blogging, I was always free flow writing about my experiences here in Manila and how it showed me that life will never be easy than I thought it would be. To be honest, I missed doing it but writing everything that was inside my head became heavy for me. Instead of writing, I turned to photography because I know I can do better in that field. I was never good at writing anyways.

The captured and recorded experiences that my past two years stay here in Manila, taught me how to be thankful to every bits and pieces of my happiness. I also planning to develop the photos I took on my last NSTP immersion because it became a constant reminder for me to be thankful everyday because my tough times are nothing compare to other people. I’m sincerely looking forward to a lot of things this year; The things that can change and help me grow as a person.

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After all the stress and dramas, fashion design students hard work finally paid off. All of our final projects were combined for the exhibit that started just last week! Putting them together made the whole 8th floor of School of Design & Arts really beautiful. I really love the projects that the seniors made and some of my block mates who made apparels for the exhibit. Now that the first term is finally over, I cannot wait for the next term to start so that I could learn more, because honestly, I was a bit unfortunate that I got the crappy professors. Even though I didn’t learn much, I’ve been practicing my sewing since my father bought my own portable sewing machine two weeks ago. Teaching myself through youtube videos and books is a bit stressful, but totally worth of my time.

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  • It gives me heartache when I think about leaving you, because I know deep inside my heart, leaving you will break me more than it will destroy you.
  • It’s crazy how I know my life could have been if I never met you, but I couldn’t imagine yours. I would never wish to forget you, because without you is forgetting how to live without the sun.
  • I wish for the day we wouldn’t care about the time and how it flies too fast. I want to be with you at sunrise until the sunset comes along in everyday of our lives.
  • Sorry for being too hard on you. I never wanted it to be like this but the people, distance and time scares me the most. I hope you understand and never get tired of me, because I will never be perfect. I will always make mistakes.
  • Looking at the city lights made me realise that hope still shines even at the darkest times. Just like us, you are my light through my ups and downs. Thank you for pulling me up when I feel down and thank you for helping me keep my feet on the ground.
  • This night could have been perfect with you by my side, talking about life, our future, weird thoughts, and random people. I wish you are with me right now. 
  • I am truly grateful that you accepted the real me. You never forget to tell me how beautiful I am because you know I feel insecure and ugly most of the time. I just love how you care for me, it always makes me kilig and sometimes, crazy.
  • The sleepless nights and the most tiring days with you were the best. Our adventures together helped me to know the real you and I love that I lam still learning new things about you everyday since we have been together.
  • I trust you with all my heart but my trust with the people around you are very limited. People are genuinely nice but they can be genuinely mad for no reason at all too. 
  • I hope the distance between you and me would make our hearts grow fonder.
My Life Lately

Yay, my midterm week is finally done for this term! I got a lot of free time for this weekend and I’m not ending it without being productive. I started my Saturday morning reading A Game of Thrones and after lunch, I decided to get back on my first love, watercolour painting.

Even though I spend a lot of time making plates for school, I really never got the time to do paintings for myself. I decided to devote my Fridays and Saturdays for my watercolor and hopefully, my hard work will soon pay off. Watercolor is a lot harder to handle compare to Acrylic paint that I used everyday last term, I actually preferred it when I used to join contests when I was in grade school. Unfortunately, I stopped when I entered high school because it became least of my priorities. Anyway, now that I’m learning and exploring its wonders again, I am hoping that it will help me find the work I really want after college.

I’m currently on my third year now and it means, my college life is nearing its end! 

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My Monday was a blast and it was my first time to ride a Ferris Wheel since grade school. I got scared a bit but as soon as I saw the view, I fell in love with Tagaytay even more. Who wouldn’t love these view right? I hope Tagaytay would stay like this forever and maybe someday, I’ll have my own pineapple farm. Sky eye and visiting the Puzzle Mansion is another check on my bucket list. Yay!

  1. Cold weather these past few days
  2. 1 week vacation from school
  3. Celebrating another monthsary together 
  4. True friends
  5. Online shopping
  6. Drinking coffee every morning
  7. Drinking tea before going to bed
  8. The Walking dead with my mother and lola
  9. Red nail polish 
  10. Sunset after school
  11. A nice book from him
  12. NSTP kids
  13. Sunflower
  14. Heated curls on a random day
  15. Making this Happy List
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Sigh, my flight got cancelled yesterday because of Force Majeure. I’m still upset right now but my parents and I are planning to rebook another flight after September 25 or on my sister’s term break. I was lucky enough to get a four days break for the second term! It means that I can go home to Calbayog any time I want. Anyway, even though I didn’t get the chance to get the vacation I really wanted, I am currently spending it with my family and I’m very happy to spend some quality time with my brothers. I was also cleaning up my phone and deleted tons of photos on my VSCO library, I didn’t realise until now that my life has been pretty adventurous after all.

I wish for these adventures to be spontaneous, small or big, as long as I am with the people I love. It’s September already but I still have 117 days left until next year, I’m not going to lose hope! Getting out of the topic, I am also getting a lot of request on the things you guys want to see on my blog, but every time I was about to write all of your requests, I always get mental block. What if I record a video blog instead of writing all of it? 

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University of the Philippines Los Baños (A trip to remember)

I finally got the chance to visit University of the Philippines in Los Baños! I also went to Diliman last year but I never got the chance to blog about it. Luckily, my friends uploaded the video. You can view it here

Back to LB, Jieno asked me if I could accompany him yesterday to get his class cards and asked a few things on their registrar. Of course I said yes, because the last time I went to Los Baños was four years ago to accompany my brother for his educational tour. Jieno and I got to UP before 11am and we went straight to the University to run his errands. After getting his class cards, he toured me around even though the weather was so bipolar. I also tried the chocolate milk and strawberry yogurt that can only be found in the campus. The whole tour made my feet tired we decided to leave already and eat our lunch at McDonalds outside UP. We checked a few stores to buy slippers and I just found out that there are few vintage stores that can be found just outside the campus! Anyway, I promise myself to bring enough money so that I could visit those shops again and buy the things that I want. Hehehe <3

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I. ”What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You’ve got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down
What’s going on in that beautiful mind
I’m on your magical mystery ride
And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright” - All of me


II. “I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, ‘cause I’m already falling
I’ll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I’m home” - Arms


III. “But I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down, won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ‘cause I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life, won’t look down, won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light, ‘cause I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight” -Chandelier

IV. “Never know how much I love you

Never know how much I care, When you put your arms around me I get a fever, that’s so hard to bear” - Fever

V. “She’s up all night to the sun

I’m up all night to get some
She’s up all night for good fun
I’m up all night to get lucky” - Get Lucky


VI. “I was a quick-wit boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere” - Iron & Wine


VII. “My old man is a bad man but
I can’t deny the way he holds my hand
And he grabs me, he has me by my heart
He doesn’t mind I have a Las Vegas past
He doesn’t mind I have an LA crass way about me
He loves me with every beat of his cocaine heart” - Off to the Races


VIII. ”Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry
You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I’ll set you apart” -The Scientist


IX. ”All I am is a man
I want the world in my hands
I hate the beach
But I stand
In California with my toes in the sand
Use the sleeves of my sweater
Let’s have an adventure
Head in the clouds but my gravity’s centered
Touch my neck and I’ll touch yours
You in those little high-waisted shorts, oh” - Sweater Weather


X. ”Yeah I wish I’d been a, wish I’d been a teen, teen idle
Wish I’d been a prom queen fighting for the title
Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible
Feeling super, super (super!) suicidal
The wasted years, the wasted youth
The pretty lies, the ugly truth
And the day has come where I have died
Only to find I’ve come alive” - Teen Idle

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Thank  You for giving me someone I can lean on everyday. Someone that I know will be there even though we’d fought so many times. I couldn’t imagine my life without my younger sister, specially that I have three younger brothers who I really love but annoys me most of the time. And even though we don’t share or spill our deepest secrets to each other, we always try to understand our different situations. I hate it when she suddenly cries to me and I couldn’t do anything but comfort her. I never realize until now that when people hurt her, they actually hurt me more, because I never wanted to see my sister to be in a place I never wanted to be into. Anjanette and I are not only sisters by blood; we are soul sisters, and I will always be beside her through thick and thin.

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It’s official, I don’t have any term break. It was so hot yesterday morning and I never thought that it would rain last night or even today. I spent half of of my day yesterday with Jieno, because it was holiday and we wanted to spend our monthsary together. We postponed our plans of going to UP because of the scorching weather and spent the whole day hanging out with my family instead. Jieno left my house around 3 in the afternoon, while my family were getting ready for our family dinner. 

We decided to eat our dinner in Mall of Asia because it is near my condominium and besides, we haven’t tried all the restaurants there. We went to Yabu and we were very fortunate that there weren’t a lot of people even though it was holiday. The food was great and I would totally come back with Jieno for our next date in Manila! Anyway, after our dinner I asked my father if our family could try bowling because we haven’t tried it yet even though we spend a lot of time in Eagle Ridge before. My father agreed and our whole family with our kasambahay played bowling the whole night. We decided to leave around 10 pm and we were shocked that it was raining so hard. My mother even predicted that there will be a suspension, and tadah! it came true. 

I wish for no more suspensions of classes because I want to pursue my plans this coming september. Let us all pray for good weather! stay safe everyone. <3