you've been on my mind lately, i need to say this.
bestfriend (andi) ; honestly, i am not all i could be without you. hollow-eyed and lacking spirit, i lose myself when you are not near. i will fight my way back to you and your arms and your face and your voice and your hands for the rest of my days, if i must. i love you. you’re always my number one. always my bestfriend. it says so, in the blackest of all inks, where you scrawled your name and your being all over the insides of my heart. and until we have nothing but summer rain between us, this aching soul will not rest.
absolute faith (deedee) ; you gave me hope when i could have sworn there was none. you will forever hold the most special place in my heart. you are my rock, my key and all of my inbetweens, dee. i adore everything you are and will become; and i promise you - i will never forget us. i love you. we have many more years together, you and i; and i can’t wait to spend them with you.
starscream (sash) ; whether you know it or not, you’ve meant so much to me the past few months. your entire being reminds me of the two most important girls in my life (see above) and the fact that being around you feels like home, is something i never thought i could have while away from those two. i don’t have a photo with you, but i would love to acquire one. so that when people ask me who got me through the years i had away from home, i can say here, this girl. yeah, the one that looks like sunshine and moonlight all at once. because that’s what you are to me, starscream - brilliant light. you, are my northern lights. please stay.
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caitie (caitlin) ; you have no clue, do you? you make my life carefree and easy again, you give me time to just breathe. i owe you so much of the person that i am and will be, caitie. you’d better stick around in my life forever, all right? never in my life have i ever met anyone who has as much violence and attitude and self-respect as i do; but you, well you blew me away. sometimes i feel like looking in a mirror and saying, ‘hey caitie, sup?’ i love you. thankyou for being there even when i didn’t deserve anyone - let alone someone who cares about me half as much as you do.
finally, the love of my life (alexx) ; you make the days possible. you make my heart beat a little more frequently. you charm me more and more everyday, and the rest of my life is yours. baby, you are my life, now. i love you unlike any other and i never plan on being without you. thankyou, for making my life bearable, worthwhile, whole. thankyou for loving me the way i should be loved, the way i need to be loved, the way i love you. forever and a little bit longer, my love. waking up to you every morning is on my to do list for the rest of my days.