I’m about half awake right now, but I feel the need to share this before I went back to sleep
I tend to have my share of dreams that involve the people of TGWTG and or other popular Internet personalities, most of them are goofy and silly, occasionally I’ll have one that gets me mad because it makes me feel like some sort of creepy stalker-ish fan girl, but the one I just quite literally woke up from is by far THE most poignant I have ever had.
First off I wasn’t even IN this dream, but more like a silent unseen observer watching it all. In the dreamJewWario’s wife Jenny requested that a handful of people meet with her, a few of his friends, like psychotaku, psychoneko, a few of the TGWTG producers, and some fans and/or people who lays showed at his live streams, such as Katie, PinkRangerWannabe, and Miss Nayong, there were 8 people in total, enough to fill a minivan, because there was a minivan waiting for them when they arrived.
Jen went on to explain that she found a video will that Justin had made with the explicit instructions that it be played for these people while they went on a road trip from Colorado Springs to San Diego, and once they arrived there, Justin would have something special there waiting for each of them.
As they set off and the video began to play. Justin came on the vans media player screen and began talking.
"Hello my friends. I really hope that you will never have to watch this, but, I’m lore and more realizing that it seems likely that you will. I’m terrified of myself and I know that I’ve let myself down and I’ve let you all down"
At this Katie remarks “I don’t feel you let me down, I just wished there was some way I could have helped you”
When she said that the video of Justin responded “thank you for saying that, Karie, I don’t know why I didn’t ask you,mor anyone else in this van for help, but damn it I should have”
This of course confused and shocked everyone in the car. (Even Jen had not watched the video so had no idea what was on it) and Justin continued “sorry if that freaked you all out, I just…..think I have a good idea what you all are going to say for some reason, and will try to respond to it, kind of like that one episode of Doctor Who, with the weeping angels or something”
Soon, on the trip, everyone was talking to the video of Justin and he was talking to them in return, and they were all reminiscing and telling hi about how much he meant to them just as if he was in the car with them.
Finally they arrived in San Diego, to the parking lot of a shopping center where Justin told them to go, that’s when Justin on the video said this. “Well I’m sure by now a lot of you have figured out that, I don’t really have any special item waiting for you here, honestly I just picked this address at random, but I’m sure you also figured out that the special thing I had for you was this trip itself, I know it’s hurting you that none of you even had a chance to say goodbye to me. So this is that chance right now. You are all my dear friends and I love you all.”
And then the final words Justin said
"Oh and Jessica, you’ve been watching this whole time, the same goes to you, when you wake up, I hope you feel that this is your chance to say goodbye to me as well"
And then I woke up.
So was this dream just my mind attempting to make sense of the tragic and senseless event that took the life of a great man way too soon, or did I receive a final comforting visit from Jdub. That’s……a deep philosophical debate that, I don’t really think I have an answer to. But I do know that I think in some capacity that dream has given me a small sense of closure that I really needed.
And you know what! If I had the ability to project that dream into the brains of you all when you go to sleep, then I damn well would.