its like 2 am im so tired

SO I FUCKING DRIVE 5 HOURS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO TAKE MY SISTER TO HER NEW HOUSE BUT SURPRISE MOTHER FUCKER THERES AN ALARM AND ITS LITERALLY THE WORST FUCKING SCREECHING SO WE SIT HERE LIKE FUCK ITS 2 AM AND WE’RE TIRED AND HAVE TO EXPLAIN TO THE COPS THE PREVIOUS FUCK TARDS DIDNT SET THE ALARM TO OFF IM JUST SO FUCKING PEACHY RN

my sleep patterns are a mess, and i don’t think i intend on fixing them.  i sleep in the afternoon for about three hours, i get up and stay up, reaching prime productivity at around midnight, then back to bed at one or two till around 7.  so i’m getting seven to eight hours of sleep just really fucked up?  i don’t know, its only been a couple days but ive been pretty productive.  more on this later i think.

my mom has started 2 be so emotionally abusive lately i don know she used to be like star mom and we were close and never really fought…….. but now its like. shes condstantly making me feel bad for everyhting. asks me to do chores.. but doesnt ask more demands then  im like i am doing a load of homework im tired and stressed i’ll do it later then she yells at me and is like maybe if you went to sleep earlier you wouldnt be doung it now and you wouldnt be tired and stressed…. and its like ok thansk i kind of am incapable of getting to sleep before 3am so i get maybe 5 hours of sleep rarely.. at the very most unless its a weekend i dont know and she acts like its my fault because i just wanna stay up late doing pointless stuff or i dont try but even if i lay in bed for 3 hours i cant sleep she is such a cunt. and whenever im like i cant do anythign im doing homework its due in a few hours its for credits she just uses the whole “maybe if u didnt hang out with ur friends after skool and come home @ 7pm or later you would hav more time blahb lah blah IM A big asshole” and i have 2 excuse it weakly with like. im allowed a social life yr the one who wants me to have a social life. but the truth is if i dont do anything even for one dya then i literally get so mopey and sad that i think abot slipping my wrists until i bleed to death for hours its so bad i dont get why i cant be uneventful and feel fine about it my mom makes me feel bad for everything she expects so much  i wanna move out but i cant i want to die so bad

Its 7 am

We have our state inspection today at work and i didnt get done cleaning till 2 am i have yet to sleep and somehow im not even exhausted just sore. On another note PSA for those of you who like egg salad sandwiches add spicy doritos onto it. THE SHIT IS AWESOME and technically that was my breakfast.

xfervidus asked:

IM SO SORRY LAUGHS BUT I CANT UNSEE YOUR SIGNATURE POKEMON AS LIKE DELIBIRD OR PIPLUP AND ITS EVOS BECAUSE OF: 1) NAGISA; 2) FLUFFY PENGUIN W SOME REAL GUNS. THAT WOULD MAKE UR TYPE EITHER ICE + FLYING OR STEEL + WATer im so tired i almost wrote weak instead of water

WATER AINT WEAK RACHEL and omfg i am. a fluff penguin with literal buns of steel bye

I’m ruining my own life

I am feeling like the lowest of the low and nothing interests me still its been like 2 years and i’’m not really reading books or doing things different and its like summer time. Work as been death I haven’t been right Ive fucked up alot and i’m just not caring and actually acting like it too then with all the shit happening with the company IDK I really used to love going to work now not so much. I don’t now whats wrong but im tired of this it fucking sucks but Nobody can fix me if I’m part of the problem.

Its gotten to the point where I sleep 4-5 hours a night and im fully functioning the next day. I sleep almost around 3:30 am every night and I automatically wake up between 7:45-8 am every day and I can’t go back to sleep. I’ve literally tried everything. I stopped napping during the day, I tried music therapy, I’ve tired working out in the morning so by the time its night im exhausted. Physically I get exhausted but mentally im so awake. I never stop thinking. I feel like i did 2 lines of coke that’s how awake and alert I am (I’ve never done coke). I want to sleep but my mind literally doesn’t shut off. My parents took away my sleeping pills and they think tho isn’t a legit problem. Idk what to tell you I don’t get tired!!!!!!!

I am just so tired of stupid people today that i cant even speak. Im just gonna stay home, drink ice tea and pkay Fallout 3.
But for the record, if your “joke” involves stereotyping, racial slurs or any other unsavory fuckboy type of humor, please, please, please follow these simple steps:
1. Stop doing that
2. Stop acting like its not a big deal.
3. Remove your reproductive organs
4. Go to jail.
Just go. Seriously. Damn. Cant even talk to some friends on Facebook without seeing some ignorent ass shit.
Fuck.
There really should be a jail for these people. -.-

anonymous asked:

They posted my submission, and they liked it, so it's all okay now. How are you doing? -Sarah

I am so tired but im not but it feels like 1 or 2 in the morning. but its only midnight and I keep feeling like someones gonna throw open the door next to me that leads to the bathroom… its kinda scaring me and also I have  a cough and that’s annoying and I have a headache and everything is fuzzy right now… to be honest? when we went to the restaurant last night im only remembering ONE of the memories of it, with sound. that’s when one of the smells triggered me and Alex noticed something was up and slowly grabbed my hand and slowly pulled me into his arms like ive asked him to before… its really weird though because other memories laast night of the restaurant is like I can see their mouths moving but no sound. no audio… what is this?

~Fang

ITS 2:57 IN THE FUCKING MORNING AND I AM SO MAD AND SAD AND EVERYTHING COMBINED AND LIFE IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING IT REALLY IS BC NOTHING REALLY MATTERS LIKE 90% OF THE TIME AND IM REALLY FUCKING TIRED