its kind of a funny story

It’s so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself. That’s above and beyond everything else, and it’s not a mental complaint– it’s a physical thing, like its physically hard to open your mouth and make the words come out. They don’t come out smooth and in conjunction with your brain the way normal people’s do; they come out in chunks as if from a crushed-ice dispenser; you stumble on them as the gather beyond your lower lip. So you just keep quiet.
—  It’s Kind Of A Funny Story - Ned Vizzini
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Okay, I know you’re thinking, “What is this? Kid spends a few days in the hospital and all his problems are cured?” But I’m not. I know I’m not. I can tell this is just the beginning. I still need to face my homework, my school, my friends. My dad. But the difference between today and last Saturday is that for the first time in a while, I can look forward to the things I want to do in my life.