Going to reach out to Tumblr for this because this has been something I’ve experienced my whole life and I have never been able to pin down exactly what it is or what causes it.
There are times in my life when things feel “unbalanced”. Sometimes it’s minor, like I climbed an uneven number of stairs so one of my feet got to climb an extra step. Or I might be typing for a while and one of my fingers is over-utilized. The inputs can be visual, auditory, or tactile. It renders me completely incapable of using headphones in which only one side produces sound. Usually just a little bit of time takes the feeling away, or I’ll compensate towards the other side to try and balance things back out.
But there are times when it builds up and causes me to feel completely overloaded. It usually leads to me needing to turn off the lights and lie down very still, and even then if there’s a crease in a sheet or my clothes aren’t exactly symmetric it’ll keep me up and exacerbate the feeling. If it’s particularly bad or prominent, it’ll interfere with my ability to work properly.
I’ve looked into things like sensory overload, but this doesn’t seem to really line up. Sensory overload seems to cover things more like too much stimuli in general, not just a particular stimulus unbalance. [I guess it’s worth mentioning that I am sensitive to auditory and tactile texture - I hate 8-bit music because of its texture, for example.]
This has been a thing for as long as I can possibly remember, and I’d like to at least understand why it is. Any thoughts?