im-sorry-about-this-stupid-text-post

(Personal/miserable text post about myself don’t read if it may affect your mood or anything)
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I feel lonely. I feel like I don’t have anyone because in a conversation I’m either a) the person trying and failing to keep it going, b) the person who’s coming across as though they don’t care or they’re irritating to talk to, or c) the idiot who says nothing relevant and you just wish they would go away.
I feel awfully closeted like who I am is such a big secret. I feel like I am completely disconnected from the LGBTQ community. I feel like I’m no part of it, like I don’t deserve to have the feeling of belonging to a community that will accept me. I feel unwanted, like an outsider. Like nobody wants to talk to me, nobody wants anything to do with me. I feel horribly alone.