Embarrassing Feelings Time.

If you’ve ever looked at my liked posts you’ve probably figured out that I’m a bit of a 1D fan. I don’t like to post about them much because most people don’t react well - people LOVE to hate on 1D - and for a long time it was too personal and too vulnerable a subject. Those giant obnoxious human puppies and their music… they were keeping me from killing myself. I honestly don’t know whether I’d still be alive right now if I hadn’t… It was a small piece of myself that felt human and if someone had ripped that away from me by some unthought-out comment… I don’t know.

And I can’t believe that I love these giant dorks but I really do and I don’t know why my brain chose them to remind myself that I am not a worthless heap of garbage but it did and I’m listening to their new song and getting teary eyed and I can’t believe it’s almost been a year since their last album came out. And that these goobers decided to name their new album in a Beyonce fashion. And that I’m alive to hear it.