I’m so homesick that I’m feeling physically sick.
If I think too hard about everything I feel even sicker and more miserable. And start crying. I’m just so lonely here. I can’t wait to get a job. I’m gonna go down the road tomorrow with my resumes tomorrow.
I also haven’t eaten properly in the last few days just because of the travelling and stuff so I don’t know if that’s why I’m feeling sick or so miserable.
I went out and got groceries (thank god for credit cards… since I have no real money)… and tried to make chicken and pasta for dinner but the “creamy garlic pasta” tasted and smelled like fish (ew) so I couldn’t eat it.
So I turned it into a stirfry full of vegetables and goodness. I over salted though so struggling with that too.
I’m proud of myself though, I haven’t turned to darker ways to make me feel better. Instead I sit here with my laptop on Tumblr with Netflix playing on my iPad to make me feel less lonely.