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Please fire me.  I think we all know working retail sucks, with rude customers and high expectations when you’re just one person.  But when you’re desperate enough to work at Dollar Tree of all places, you know it’s bad.  (And yes, you “funny” customer, everything IS INDEED a fucking dollar.)

My job description is basically “cashier first, stocker second”.  But apparently no one told me I was also a janitor, a babysitter, a shrink, and the brains behind the manager who can’t think for himself half the time.  Okay fine, I’ll clean up your crap that you’re too lazy to put back in its original spot that’s two feet away from you.  Fine, I’ll watch your kid for a moment if you need to use the restroom.  I’ll listen if you really want to tell me about the shitty day you’ve been having prior to coming to my register.  Okay manager, I’ll handle the customer for a few minutes while you back me up on the register.

However, if you’re going to take all the shit from the party aisle and shove it into the empty cavity on the shelf specifically made for bread, get out of my store.  If your child won’t listen to me after I’ve told them 4 times to stop pulling the balloons out of the corral, you need to put your child on a leash.  If you’re going to blame me for your shitty day and take all your frustration out on me, then I WILL make myself the reason you’re not in control of your own damn life.  And manager, for the love of whatever you believe in, do your fucking job as a manager and not talk to your wife about moving to Florida in *certain time frame*; stop bullshitting on the side-lines and help me on the register when I need it.

Don’t argue with me over something coming out to $1.06 because you didn’t think to bring change with you for tax.  Don’t argue with me when I say we only do exchanges and that I am not authorized to do full refunds.  And especially don’t argue with me when your card declines and you don’t carry cash.

And I swear, if you come into my store, and I have a small line of two people, and you want a new line to open because you woke up late for work and you’re too damn impatient to purchase a single bottle of water, I will gladly step away from my register to hand you an application so you can ring up your own fucking water, you impatient, sweaty, suit-and-tie dickweed.

anonymous asked:

How would the Hyung line react to coming home to see their gf washing her car in a tee, cute ripped Jean shorts and a messy bun, music playing and her cutely dancing and singing not realizing he is home.

(Is it bad that my brain automatically thought of “Milkshake” when I saw this request? XD) I think I’ll add gifs to this.

Jin/Seokjin: “Oh! Cleaning the car I see.”

Suga/Yoongi: “Looking good Jagiya.”

J-Hope/Hoseok: “Need any help?”

Rap Monster/Namjoon: “How can you even make THAT look sexy?”

~ Admin L

I woke up at 4am and couldn’t go to sleep so I ended up cleaning my room and doing a bunch of paperwork and making some appointments?? and now i’m feeling weirdly dizzy and spacey like i SHOULD sleep but I don’t feel sleepy i’ll just lie there and think about all the shit i need to do. what is happening with my brain right now. @brain why the eff are you like this sTOP

Signing a lease tomorrow for the 1br in Tucson. I’m fucking terrified and embarrassed. The terror comes from suddenly having bills to pay whether or not I have income, and the shame from having friends that have been doing it for years and still finding a way to function.
What’s wrong with me? I should be excited that I found a place dirt cheap to live that also has the character I dream about, but all I can think about is responsibility and living alone. And I won’t have my dog. And a year feels like major commitment, even though I know it really isn’t. And there are all these logistical problems I need to figure out regarding shuffling all my stuff down there. Ugh. And kitchen supplies and cleaning supplies and appliances are expensive.

I quit for the night. My brain needs a break.

just some thoughts

i have to stop getting myself in awkward situations!! i want to learn to be alone. i should speak my mind. i believe im the boring child. i like my music taste, its me. i need to learn to multitask better. i want my anxiety to go away. i want to finish school already. i want to live alone in nyc and travel the world. i like that im really good with my hands and using my brain. i think im funny but i know i can be weird. i don’t waste my time on shows or books that won’t get me to a better future. if it don’t interest me i don’t wanna know about it. im a clean and organized freak. i’ve ran into too many people that don’t want to get to know me. i want to believe in a higher superior. i have weird habits. i don’t follow the fashion trends, i wear whatever i like and whatever i can put together. i never loved anyone more than my dog. who finds me interesting??

Thanks to everybody who answer my peroxide question!

Deer on hill actually had pretty much all her flesh gone. Brain and everything is cleaned real nicely. Few patches of fur but that easily pealed off. She just needs a good brushing. So I don’t think maceration was necessarily needed.

Possum on the other hand had some fleshy bits I pulled off after a day of soaking. Got some mud left on him.
But all in all they’re in good shape!

Mental disorder

I just want to be that normal girl that moves into an apartment and is okay. 

For me I have to clean the apartment repeatedly about four or five times. Even then my brain tells me that there is still germs. I’m going to have a hard first year until my mind adjusts to the change. 

I know that the apartment is clean, but my brains is like no it’s not and I’m going to make you suffer. Just thinking about the apartment makes me anxious and sick to my stomach. 
Luckily I have a very supportive mom and fiance. My mom told me that if need be I can alternate spending the night there and at her place. I really want to try and stay at the apartment and hopefully it will speed up the acceptance process. Also my fiance is very understanding, which helps :)  

anonymous asked:

I need advice. I have two options for a summer job. (Neither are definite yet) Option 1: cleaning up a college. Would be solitary and would pay more. Problem is I would be left alone with my brain for hours and hours daily and sometimes quiet is violent. Option 2: life guarding, lots of people. Only problem is my mind keeps replaying scenarios where I let someone die. So basically I have to choose between my depression and anxiety and I don't know what to do.

hmm this is tricky. do you think for the first option, you could listen to music or a podcast or something? that could help to keep your mind off of its own thoughts. it’s always good to save up money in the summer. and for the second option, i know it’s easy to think of all the worst case scenarios, but keep in mind that typically there are a lot of life guards on duty at a time, so there’s really no way you COULD let someone die because you will always have help. and if you’re well trained (and i’m pretty sure life guards have to go through a LOT of training), you’ll be well equipped for a lot of different situations and you’ll know what to do. be confident in your abilities! both jobs sound really solid so i guess it just depends on if you like being around people and in the sun, or if you prefer a quieter environment and better pay

Sleepover Friday! Send me anything!

I think I’m gonna start using tumblr again

But I’m gonna redo my blog. Clean up my followers. Follow new people that align with my goals aka fitness, computer coding/technology, career success, entrepreneurship, and just for fun some fashion. I meant to do this a while ago, hence the whole blog name change to self-alliance. I’m also gonna stop posting personal problems here. I think we’ve grown past that. Plus, there are other mediums to rant on. 

The mind needs direction and the direction mine is going in is too caught up in personal relations and insignificant shit that doesn’t matter. Recently, I’ve spent a lot of time numbing my brain. I have 8 seasons of House done in 3 weeks to prove it. That needs to end. Let’s redo. Go back to winter break, motivated Marina that had everything fucking set straight. 

Goodbye My Friend

There are some periods in our lives where we just need to push on through the exhaustion and the distraction. But there are other periods, when that exhaustion and sense of distraction is a clear sign that we need to slack off and give our brains a rest for a bit.

There are going to be times when our brains are fried and our imaginations are dried up - and it happened to me. 

Writing is very important to me, it’s always been but I think I should stop doing this. I think, I should stop writing for awhile. I know that my writing isn’t going so great and by that I wanted to recharge my batteries, to flush all the bad habits and to clean my head. 

I feel so guilty that I have not been working on my short stories and other things so I want to let the story breathe and also to let myself breathe.

Life has a way of surprising us. We never know quite what it’s going to throw at us.

Goodbye for now.