done skye! (and sarah u just know to ask about ward, don’t u)
character: hate them | don’t really care | like them | LOVE them | THEY ARE MY PRECIOUS (i’ve cried about grant ward at 4am that its own category)
ship with: skye aka skyeward — and dabble in fitz + simmons but really i am just skyeward trash (and fitzwardskimmons) + raina
friendship them with: fitzwardskimmons! potential that was thrown away: trip + bobbi (tho tbf bobbi maybe, maybe can happen + hunter). and kara. i’ve headcanoned so much i’m excited to see what their relationship brings. also the ward brothers bc fuck u it needs to be said that thomas + grant are my downfall.
general opinions: where do i begin. [i talk about him a lot here btw] ok like skye, ward was not my favourite character from the start. however, he was the reason i picked up the show again after hearing he was a double agent on twitter (literally my entire tl was screaming). so i sort of had a different experience overall with his character: i watched the first 4/5 eps live in 2013 and then proceeded to be shocked when i found out about 117, then went back and watched knowing who/what he was. so i never really felt fully betrayed by his character like i know many were. and really, grant ward + skyeward after 117 is my guilty pleasure trope, aka in love with the mark. literally. also anti-heroes. i love anti-heroes so so much.
so when i was watching it i was already knowing how much this ship would fuck me up and how he would ultimately do the same. i caught up before 121 and literally no one knew ward’s true motivations at this point, and we were left going well we know this and this but why is he like this who is grant ward??11?? i probably sold my soul as soon as buddy showed up and then was crushed all over again because you know, fitzsimmons and ward in 120.
fast forward to september and the new season and its probably clear at this point that any episode with ward in it is my favourite (i hadn’t actually rewatched ep 2 + 4 until my official rewatch later). narratively speaking, he brings a lot of drama and suspense to his scenes, which makes it extremely entertaining and gripping for me to watch. he’s also a very complicated character, and has a compelling push and pull in regards to his redemption. he is a wild card. i forget how dangerous he is tbh, until one moment you’re just like “oh shit” and then the next is “hoOoOOoly shit” u know (a+ explaining there).
in perspective: i literally fell off my bed when he came down the stairs in 209 even though i KNEW it would be him. like fuck, i never planned to be this invested.
as i’ve said before i’ve read a shit load of fanfic about ward, and have actually bawled over this fic called ‘nothing special about grant ward’ at 4am. you can probably tell that i’ve sold my soul to thomas ward, and ANYTHING grant ward family related has me on the brink. young!ward and the ward family just sets me off. (which also is a nice parallel to skye and her chaotic feelings about home as well but im talking about ward so i’ll hold off). part of me wants to just wrap him in a blanket and give him a dog. the other half of me is yelling for him to fuck shit up THE OTHER PART of me is pounding fists on tables and demanding the writers continue some progressive development that has ward leading. the other other other part is crying because while i want ward and skye no where near each other atm, i also crave skyeward interactions. it’s a dilemma and this ship fucking hurts like a bitch.
you know that post that was like ‘all five are the one’ and it was ‘my son’ ‘my husband’ etc? that’s grant ward for me. that is he. my snarky trash bag son. i am literally grant ward trash.
i mean, part of my love (ok not ‘part’ nearly 87% of my love) for grant ward is strengthened from my unbelievable love i have for brett dalton. i have a break down about this man either every day or every other. unfortunately i’m not kidding (ps. having brett on twitter notifs was the best and worst thing to ever happen to me). and brett dalton is the biggest grant ward stan; you may think you’re ward’s biggest fan, but you’re not. so i just? i love this man. so much. god fucking dammit just please watch this. but again this is about grant ward and if i talk about brett dalton i will literally be here all day. oh captain, my captain.
the fact of the matter is this: i am literally so fucked.